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Saturday 14th Jan 2012

2012-01-14T13:36:00.000-08:00

Well I didn't get to SW this week as Key and the kids took me for a meal - it was nice all being together for the first time in a long time - meal was good too - desserts were to die for !

Dreadful day at work on Tuesday - Fi basically accused me of lying - I was real angry - I saw boss and told her that I wasn't going to stand for it - I also said that I was sick of them having breakfast breaks and getting in late and doing no work and sitting around talking and leaving early etc etc -------- I couldn't help myself when I was so bloody angry. Anyway, had wednesday off for my birthday - remembering that THEY forgot my birthday completely last year I felt that I needed my birthday off this year so if they forgot it wasn't so embarrassing again. Went in thursday to a few cards - nothing more - so I DEFINITELY will NOT be putting to gifts and flowers and wot nots this year - feel much better about that

Did have a wonderful birthday with my family though and had a crafting desk lamp and the dutchess of duke street to sit and watch over a couple of weeks .......................

Today I am showing 3lb's down - so IF I'm good over the next couple of days (have been good today) then I could be 4 - 5lb's down by next Tuesday - will try anyway.

Resurrecting this bloggy

2012-01-07T15:19:00.000-08:00

I'm using my other blog for the crafty stuff and this blog for my slimming campaign for 2012.

I am still about 1.5 stones lighter than I was 18 months ago - now I want to lose the stone I have regained over 2011 (whoops) easily done, and a further half a stone. Was 12.3 !!!

Started back to slimming world on 3rd Jan, then Koz's car played up and had to take her after work to get it sorted, leave it there, arguments !!! - and take her to fetch it the following day and she having no money costing us £100 - nightmare couple of days. Then Keir came home had broke his specs and needed new ones but hadn't got any money so cost us £125 - he is paying us back - but how can I ask him for money if Korin isn't paying us back?? SHE SAID SHE IS, but I really don't know how she will afford to being on a student grant.

Not good news at work - and waiting to hear who will be made redundant, praying it won't be me, but last in first out springs to mind, despite whether you are a worker - like me or a slacker like 'the others' in the office, they drive me mad.

Hope 2012 brings me a new job, something good, interesting and I feel happy in.

Sunday, Sunday, SUNDAY Sunday !

2011-06-19T09:59:00.000-07:00

I used to love SUNDAYS can't say I do now - as it's the day before going back to work POO.

But I just walked the dog and felt calm and relaxed and Happy !! Yep, me happy. It's Fathers day today, Keir got Key to take him from Derby to Nottingham to see about a bike but he didn't go for it - I am probably happy that he didn;'t go for it because I worry to death when he's on a motorbike - although he's older now and a bit more sensible. However, other people on the road aren't sensible. I can't think about it.

Korin is progressing nicely to Uni - we got a few more 'things/bits' for her to go - a bit of food items - tins and noodles and knives and forks etc - little by little. I hope she likes it, I hope she loves it - I hopse she's safe - again that worries me to death her going BUT - she's quite a sensible girl really (I HOPE).

Done a bit of crafting this weekend - nothing much really, relaxing day today and as I said when walking Gunner - felt really relaxed.

Hope work is OK.

We have to look after the shop next week - dreading that - shouldn't be too bad - I HOPE we don't look too stupid....................I'll take some crafting ATC's with me and so occupy myself as I can't see us being busy enough to keep us both (korin and I) occupied for the 10 hours we shall be there.

Although we'd like the shop to be busy. hope it suddenly doesn't go bananas and we can't cope. Not going to worry about it though.

April 23rd - Easter Sunday tomorrow

2011-04-23T16:55:00.000-07:00

Just been away for a week in Weymouth at Johnnies Caravan. It was good apart from me having a jaw abscess, feel terrible, pain awful, on antibiotics and tired.....................done a bit of crafting this weekend./

Olivia and Keir here until Monday then going back to Doncaster. I think they enjoyed the holiday - hope so anyway.

Gained 7lb's on HOLIDAY, I cannot believe that - weighed this morning and lost a pound - so 6lb's to go. John and Chris's 40th Wedding Anniversary in 4 weeks time - NEED to lose - at leaast the 7lb's I gained and buy a nice outfit for the meal we are going to.

Gotta get to bed..................been sitting crafting - head not good witht his infection. Work onTuesay yak yak yak - but need the money.

It's been a while - and then some

2011-03-18T11:13:00.000-07:00

7 months to be precise, since I posted last - or therabouts.

Time flies by so quickly. Such a lot has happened.

I am still at the hospital in L - still finding the job boring but copeable. I got a job back at where I was - not with Shitface Scumbag but the same hospital - saw the girls who worked in the cafe/restaurant and they were very pleased to see me. I would have loved to take the job BUT it was working until midnight one night a week and couldn't guarantee me a parking place, I had enough trouble working there before without parking on=site so at midnight having to walk through the town to get to my car - it was a no no - but they seemed lovely and as I said I would have loved the job.

I have a job interview on Monday - don't know whether to go for it yet - but probably will to see whats what. It's full time unfortunately.........................but the money will come in handy and it's only working until 2.30 pm each day from 6.30 am - one week and 11 til 7 pm the following week, will have to think about it - THATS IF I GET IT.

Oh and I am still on Slimming World. Have now lost 2 stones and 4lb's - feeling much better but been struggling the last few weeks - must get back on track properly and get 3 stones off altogether and hopefully feel GREAT. Do feel very much better though. Suppose will have to update my picture too.

Sunday15th August, 2010

2010-08-15T07:51:00.000-07:00

In 5 days time I will have been married for 33 years......................blimey.........................a whole lifetime! I have been a Mrs much longer than I was a miss. Speaking to Janet (my sister) earlier today and we have to be thankful. We've all had 'good' partners. Certainly can't grumble with mine - ALTHOUGH I do - but I don't mean to. He's been a good-un.

Well. Slimming World wise I am 10lb's lighter....................and hoping to make the stone this week which would be in 4 weeks - how good would that be - I have verbally committed to class that I will do it - IF I miss, it's not for the want of really trying. Have upped my exercise and watched EVERYTHING that's gone into my mouth. I am really hoping that I make this stone off - even if my weight loss then slows down I don't mind. I feel loads better already.

Job OK. Girls still nice - job still boring.

Have applied for a job which I REALLY hope I get - not just because it's the next band up but because the job seens really interesting. Closing date is on my wedding anniversary so hoping that is a good sign AND Mr Toady still accepting the coin - fingers and toes and everything else crossed. REALLY REALLY HOPE I GET IT.......................I just want to do something interesting and enjoy my work, is it too much to ask.

At least I'm not with shitface - wish I hadn't let her drive me out as the job was OK, it was just her.

Well. Might get a bit of crafting done before putting dinner on for DH - he's fishing hope he's catching.

Will update again if I make that stone off.

Well.

2010-07-29T06:19:00.000-07:00

Week 1 - lost 5lb's = quite chuffed with that.

HOPE that I could have, at least another 3lb's off next week - that would be a great start.

Tired - worn out - threats of redundancy at work, but boss says that it's high and middle management - hope so, I might be bored in my job but it's easy to do and the girls are good to work with. THANK GOODNESS for that !

how many more times do I say 'how quickly the times goes by'

2010-07-24T14:58:00.000-07:00

Been back at work over a week. I am bored. BUT the girls are lovely. It's not a worry to go into work, and I don't feel threatened. So I am kinda happy really.

Started back at slimming world last Tuesday - wasn't as heavy as I feared...........still need to lose at least 2 stones though. Not been too bad, I can't get into diets properly these days and only follow them loosely. BUT am thinking about being slim again etc, so I think it's at the forefront of my brain at the mo. I hope. I would love to be a lot slimmer for Christmas. AND for all the walking about I have to do at work.

wednesday 14th - I think

2010-07-14T02:43:00.000-07:00

lost track of the days ..................... wednesday so been off work for 3 days. I feel loads better today, still got the wooshing and swooshing in the ear, still a little dizzy, was determined to go into work today until I bent down to get the iron to iron Key's shirt for work and nearly ended headplanting into the wall again !! - I hope this dizziness passes very soon, I hate the feeling and how can I work rushing up and down the bays filing - pulling records - to and fro the computer - it's going to be a nightmare. I feel so bad taking time off work, I know they are exceptionally busy, but nothing I can do.

I shall get everything ready for work tonight, and get up real early so that I can take my time getting in tomorrow. Just hope they're all ok with me taking time off when they are so rushed off their feet.

so - it's time to get it done !

2010-07-13T00:45:00.000-07:00

Sunday my ear infection got much much worse - this is about the 4th - 5th time since last november - Sunday night/Monday a.m didn't sleep a wink because of the pain in my ear despite paracetamol and ibruprofen. Throbbing and wooshing and swooshing and itching, driving me crazy. SO I didn't go into work. I felt awful, I hate taking time off.

AND as I got out of bed I suddenly found myself 'up the wall' - dizzy panicking a little. Anyway, rang into work sick. Got a doctors appointment who was very nice and prescribed antibiotics and ear drops - BUT looked back again at my records. Those two blood tests in Feb and March despite being told they were fine 'they are fine the doc said BUT with having all these ear infections and my blood sugar was high and cholesterol was high, it needs further investigation' - so I am worried and have booked a Glucose Tolerance Test at the hospital in Nuneaton when I got back - doctors orders..............................so fingers crossed it all works out OK and IF I get back on my diet properly I could very easily beat this thing. I hope so anyway.

Mr IB came and has lost 2 stones in 3 months on SW - I know I need to go back. I know Key needs to lose weight too - but I know that Key couldn't eat how IB does - so it's going to be difficult.

Anyway, something has to be done. Home again today, back at work tomorrow providing my ear doesn't see me looking as if I've had 6 pints of beer as I am still pretty dizzy around here!

Two weeks have passed since I last posted.

2010-07-10T02:04:00.001-07:00

Blimey how quickly those weeks go by.

How I wish I could be on holiday every week. I really missed my holiday this time around. Tired too. I am bored in the job, I have to keep reminding myself that it is much better for me to be bored but happier than not bored but working with shitface - I am so glad to be away from her but I am still angry she forced me out that job - she should be retired. Nasty vile stinking woman that she is.

However, I do have a laugh with new girls I work with - and they are fine with me - I just wish that the job was more interesting - it's quite brain numbing. Having said that IF I was to do 'all' the job then it wouldn't be so bad - maybe they'll teach me the rest of the job soon. I hope so, because I don't know how long I can be brain dead really.

Might be going to Keirs tonight for Dinner, supposed to be last night but they were in bed all day beause Keirs going through yet another bad sleeping time with his M.E.

Korin is looking great on her died. Must attach a pic - I really MUST MUST MUST knuckle down - I have lost the 3lb's I gained on holiday, but I realy could be half a stone lighter after two weeks - so gotta get to it - feeling really uncomfortable in the heat of the office.

Saturday 26th June, 2010

2010-06-26T16:12:00.000-07:00

Yes, already. We had a wonderful week in Bridport - by Weymouth and in Johnnies caravan. It was good of him to let us have it - and a great week weather wise too - was a long way. AND on the way back I had to drive as Key was suffering from the effects of sunstroke - he looked really bad and kept falling to sleep. Thankfully I got into the motorway driving but you don't realise how 'FAST' motorway driving is - and you need you wits about you at all times. Anyway, I got meself a gold star - so to speak.

It was so lovely to have Keir and Olivia with us too - I have missed Keir over the last 9 months that he hasn't lived with us. Yes he's hard work at times, but I have missed him. It was nice to spend the whole week - no arguments, he was fine. I felt sorry for Olivia though, she doesn't really know us, she's still very young too. BUT she was fine and they seem exceptionally happy and I am happy they're happy too.

So. Got my washing done and housework done and it's exceptionally hot still and tomorrow need to do shopping and the rest of the washing and things ready for work - YAK.

OK the job is better than working with SHITFACE LIZ WOOD - but it's not as interesting job-wise. AND in this heat in 'full leather shoes' - I don't know if I shall cope.

I gained 3lb's on holiday so gotta have another good day food wise tomrorow so I am only probably 2lb's heavier on Monday morning. MIGHT go see if I can get a black skirt which is a bit looser on me for Monday morning - so hot to be trussed up!

The pick is of an ATC I made tonight - for a swap on UKS, the flowers were made from thin metal mounted onto copy paper and cuttlebugged and I finally found my 'real' gold leaf - love that stuff. WELL, I love anything shiny.

Orf I go to bed - IF I can sleep in this heat.

I don't make cards !

2010-06-19T13:45:00.000-07:00

as a rule, as I am so 'pants' at making them. But today a customer/friend is 60 next week whilst I am away and I didn't like the selection at Asda so thought I'd make her one. WAS going to make a beautiful 'magic exploding box' many weeks ago but never got round to it with new job etc. So hope she is pleased with the result of this card. It's a lot more colourful (summery) and blingy IRL - it's an ATC and everything was made by me (except the backing of the ATC and I think Gingersnaps made it as a card enclosing a swapped ATC with me - I asked her if I could use her card for a background for an ATC and so this ATC was made). I wasn't exceptionally happy with the card, but I do hope that jo likes it.

Off on me jollies in the morning.

Tired today - saturday

2010-06-12T11:57:00.000-07:00

another week done at work - my third.

Tired, tired, tired. I know I am only doing 4 hours overtime per week but I don't want to do overtime. I wish I hadn't agreed to it - how do you stop doing overtime. With everything else I do I am worn out.

However, I understood a lot more at work - and the job isn't as boring as I thought it would be.

Have had a bit of time crafting etc. Got a lot to do this weekend to get ready for the holiday next week. I am so looking forward to it. Hope its a good holiday. Keir and Olivia are looking forward to it too.

Been making ATC's again and doing swapping, I've enjoyed it. Not joining anymore swaps now though until after my holls. Gotta pack a bit this week and washing up to date and get korin some shopping in the house she wants a bbq on the sunday we go - hope they're not too noisy.

Have been eating really badly. So IF I am good this week I could lose 4 lb's to go away on Saturday - I know, I know I shall probably regain it being away but IF I don't lose 4lb's before I go and gain another 4lb's whilst away I will be exceptionally fat when I get back. Thats MY logic anyway.

Gotta make sister a card for her birthday as it's 20th as we go away, and two fathers day cards to make also.

PLUS wanted to make an exploding box for Jo - my customer who is 60 on 24th.

Friday night

2010-06-04T14:39:00.000-07:00

I am so totally and utterly worn out. The heat didn't make things any better either and I left my id card at work so had to go back after finishing and going to Aldi and then after work had to sit and eat my lunch in the car park in the splintering heat ! Got home, walked dog - quick tea.

Really really tired and having to do 4 hours overtime next week AGAIN ! - had to cancel a treatment today as I just didn't think I could do it.

Busy week next week and week after with reflexology - work and overtime - getting prepared for holiday too.

Good news and I hope they do - Keir and Olivia coming on holiday with us - I really hope that we all enjoy it.

gotta get to bed.

Wednesday already

2010-06-02T15:46:00.000-07:00

I did 2.5 hours overtime yesterday - a treatment out on night. Finished at 2 today normal time, home and took Salem to vets - got home and then went over to Keirs and Olivias after tea to get Key's tablet. I'm doing a treatment straight from work tomorrow and another one at 6 at home. I hope I am not overdoing it - I don't think I can keep on doing overtime and everything else too.

It was lovely to sit and talk with Keir (olivia wasn't very well and in bed) - and he made us a cup of tea. It was nice to be with him. I think he enjoyed us going over, even though it was only for half hour. We had to get back for Key to do work for work.

I wasn't well when I got home from the vets tonight - feel rough now, hope I can go to work tomorrow and I'm not in the bathroom all night long.

Saturday 29th May, 2010

2010-05-29T03:48:00.000-07:00

Well, another (my2nd) week finished at my new job, and thankfully the girls are all very nice. How wonderful it is to go to work and not feel threatened or upset or angry all the time. It's great.

Angie and Dee rang me last night. Dee has a new job and she had the same response when giving her notice in to the boss - total and utter disinterest, didn't even ask where she was going and tried to get her to give a months notice when she only has to give a week. They hate it there, I know Monica hates it there - and I cannot believe how bad things were there until starting at this place and relaising that the people I now work with are NORMAL people. AND they said that James has gone back into my job - I was given james' job initially as they said that James WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH for the job, yet they had him back. They played directly into Liz Wood's hands - and A&D also said how vile the office is when you ring up - 'lady muck' - referring to Liz - yes that's a good name for her - lady muck because she was a fucking pile of shit.

Sunday 23rd May

2010-05-23T06:00:00.001-07:00

Where do the days go to.

Well workwise the people are lovely - no problems, don't know them yet but don't think they're the type of people to be funny..........................the job itself, I did find boring from time to time, hate all the filing, all the time, but maybe once I know more of the job I won't be filing all the time! To be fair - Fi (the team leader) is very fair, by the look of it, and so I'm not grumbling. Anyway, I will give it my best shot and hopefully will settle into it and they'll like me working with them too.

I will have to be very careful though that I don't gain weight as I can park right outside the hospital and so no 40 minutes walk every day like at Good Hope. The days go by quite quickly but have to do 5 days which I wish I didn't, I would prefer the 4 days, maybe I can change as and when Sophie my jobsharer leaves (IF she does - she's moving into a house with her boyfriend a long way away and she's hoping to get a job so she can expidite this).

Anyway, I'm not moaning because it's a thousand percent better than with Liz wood. I just wish I could hear that she's having Mega problems or they've employed someone else and she's as vile to them as she was to me - don't wish it on the new person but maybe they'll realise then that it WASN'T ME - it was HER, the SHITBAG.

Anyway, crafting this afternoon - hottest day of the year and boy is it hot ! - Key's going fishing after work and I am going to relax as I have induction tomorrow - so that's all day and then working 4 days - not looking forward to that !

Wednesday 19th May

2010-05-19T12:01:00.000-07:00

Well my new job started yesterday and I was really nervous. So so worried about it all really, I don't know why. I reckon Liz had knocked my confidence more than I ever thought she had. I hated that woman and although I am free from her - I still feel that I SHOULD have done something about her.

I wish I had gone off sick for months until they found me something else. I just hope that all this situation doesn't rear it's ugly head in the next few months.

MY NEW JOB - the people are very lovely and nice. AND that pleases me. The job yesterday seemed exceptionally boring ! I was really worried and although I finished at 1 pm I was thinking that I dind't want to go back today. I did - OF COURSE I DID, I'd never not give something a chance. AND today, it was a bit boring in the morning - but there are aspects of all jobs that are boring - and the late morning and early afternoon I sat with Linda (who explains things exceptionally well) was showing me stuff on the computer and how they send records to other departments etc. So it went quite quickly. AND they are all so much more easy going that at GHH - it was a much much better day.

I don't miss GHH - IF today is to go by I reckon I will fit in well at this place - at lease I hope I do anyway. I hope it's not too long to learn the job, but they're all saying take your time and don't rush etc............................I can't believe how much more they are laid back at this place than at Catering in GHH - STILL no word from AO'B and don't reckon she will contact me now, how disgusting is it that your manager doesn't bother to ring you to say goodbye and wish you all the best. They were ALL rubbish at GHH and I hope they one day get their cummuppence (sp?)

AND I hope it's soon and I hope that I find out about it - that'll give me a laugh.

Monday 17th May 2010

2010-05-17T05:09:00.000-07:00

Where has this week gone - sad - gotta start new job tomorrow. How I wish I could have won the lottery and not had this stress and anxiety over starting yet another new job. I know I should be elated I am away from Shitbag Liz Wood - but I now have to learn yet another new job and I feel so deflated and upset at the thought.

I just been over to hospital to check it out - car park etc it takes about 25 minutes to get there, how I wish I was working at Tamworth it would have been so easy to get to work - no barriers on the car park and no parking fee - I hope there is no parking fee at my place of work otherwise I shall just park down some side road and walk in - bloody typical.

Well, Ann didn't surprise me with a phone call - how disgusting is it that your boss doesn't ring you to wish you all the best. I know I am better off without that job - but I can't believe how badly I was treated there.................... nothing more to say. Hated the place.

Thursday 13th - 13th - hadn't realised that.

2010-05-13T01:45:00.001-07:00

AND this IS TIDY !

Absolutely wacked today as I cut the back grass and tidied all the borders, took Korin into Tamworth and myself to take the shades back. Did some washing etc etc - all over two days. I still need to get new blouses for work and shoes and get my hair cut - will do that tomorrow in Lichfield after two treatments tomorrow morning.

Saturday will be at Keirs old flat again getting it finished (I hope) for handing back. Saturday night we are going to see Georgie and Paul - and Sunday Key is off - will try and get to Keirs for tea to relax a bit.

Monday I NEED to rest and get everything ready for my new job. Praying that things will be OK. I don't remember being so nervous about starting at Good Hope? Maybe it's all the confidence I have lost working with shitbag.

Today - and it's only 9.45 am I have sorted all my craft area - patterned papers and card and all the bits and bobs I have accumulated over the last 3 years - chucked quite a bit out etc.

Will upload a pic now.

Had a lovely first day off before starting new job

2010-05-12T11:06:00.000-07:00

finished all the flat packs and did bits around the house - tried to get lampshades to fit lamp base but they were too small. BUT lounge is getting there.

12th today - Ann would have been back from her break. I know that she would have been probably busy - but NO phone call to say 'sorry you found it unbearable and had to leave - I wish you all the best' - I cannot believe how VILE that whole place was.

Count down to new job only 5 days to go, bit nervous - still upset that I was the one that had to leave but lets face it - stinking vile rotten evil nasty Liz Wood was TOO FUCKING OLD to get another job at 67 you would think she would WANT to retire - she obviously doesn't get along with her hubby very well NOT to want to be at home.

I pray my new job is good - the people are nice.

Did two treatments of reflexology with one of the secretaries from GH last night and finally told her why I was leaving - she said that she had the impression that Liz could be a difficult woman when she had been on the phone before.

I can now get on with my life and forget the last 17 months - SHE can stick herself up her arse.

I am FREE

2010-05-10T12:48:00.000-07:00

Well FREE OF HER, never to see her vile horrible stinking little flat bright red cheeked face ever again - I HOPE. IF ever I do - I don;'t know what I would say to her, maybe just punch her in the face - I'd love to do that. BUT she isn't worth it.

I went into work and asked if I could leave at 4 pm - I left at 4 pm. I wish I had left on the first friday I gave my notice in when Ann said I could...................They were all very selfish people. I really hope my new job is good. I don't know what is in store for me, but I sincerely hope that things improve, because I really hope they can't get any worse.

Goodbye stinking vile Liz Wood - I hope you rot in hell.

Happy Birthday Alison

2010-05-08T16:01:00.001-07:00

and I've forgotten. I hate getting older, I forget everything.

A real downer of a day, I just do not want to go into work on Monday morning - I hate the place, I hate HER more but she's in from Tuesday and I really don;'t want to see her on Tuesday, or wednesday or thursday - I hate her hate her hate her.

Lounge is looking almost finished and put another flat pack together today plus tidied up my scrapping area and new desk - well Keirs old one which is much better than the one I had - Key taking old black-=ash one to tip tomorrow. I remember us putting that together and Keir was probably only about 6 - 8 years old. I wish we could turn back time.

I wish I could turn back time to the day that Key said he was giving his job up to open his own shop. Depressing stuff. Ireally never thought that at 54 I'd be going into YET another new job. I feel really low, really tired, really fed up and all because of Liz fucking Wood.

You would think ....................

2010-05-03T12:17:00.000-07:00

that Mrs Nasty would think - yippee Gill will be gone in a few short weeks I might be nice to her - NO Mrs Nasty doesn't think that way and is still her usual VILE horrible STINKING rotten nasty self.

Count down now - just 6 days with HER and 7 days in total in the department. I have contemplated writing to the Chief Executive and telling him how bad my 17 months with the department have been because of HER and no back up really from the management. BUT stuff em - I shall go and hopefully enjoy my new job. FINGERS CROSSED huh.

Really tired tonight - Bank Holiday Monday - May Day. Friday put one of the lamp tables together for new lounge. Saturday spent the day with Linda round Lichfield - felt wacked then. Sunday spent the morning at Keirs and Olivias tidying a bit - bringing over furniture they no longer wanted etc, took them back.........................then last night put the 2nd lamp table together for the new lounge - the runners were marked in the wrong place and so I had to take it all apart again and then put it back together with the runners lower - boy was I wacked by the time I finished. Then today Korin decided to tidy up her bedroom and order a cupboard and a hanging rail. So we went and got that from Argos and came home - I thought I could tackle the putting together of it all on Wednesday night as I was free - Korin wanted it doing there and then. The hanging rail took no time at all but the bloody cupboard took ages especially as we put the 4 drawers runners too far back and had to take them all off again and then put them back together. Finishing off the cupboard and the drawers just wouldn't push in far enough - realised we'd put the runners on the wrong way round and had to take them all off again - WOWSEE - I am wacked. The finished result of her bedroom looks lovely though - thankfully. My lounge needs blinds and the rest of the flat pack furniture comes next Saturday - more putting together.

I must be mad.

Finally had the OFFICIAL offer of job

2010-04-25T12:43:00.000-07:00

although it's on email - did give my notice in. Boss accepted it as if I'd just given her the stats for the week - it;s quite disgusting really how I've been treated at this place. I never was one to worry about what people thought about me, here though, it's quite evident they all dislike me. ALL because of the problems I had with her. HOW I HATE HER.

She came in Tuesday and was her usual vile self for the first 10 minutes then I told her I had a new job and was leaving - her sweet sickly smile came to her face and she said 'OH I am SO pleased for you' - no you're not lady, you are pleased for yourself.

I am stressing over not having the actually fully official paperwork - I hope it comes early part of this week - if it doesn't I shall have to go collect it from my new HR because I am worried they might change their mind and now my notice is in !

In some ways I cannot wait to leave, in other ways I am so nervous about starting YET another job. Hope I do OK there, HOPE above all HOPE that the people are nice.

Fingers crossed eh. Start on 18th May. JUST 3 WEEKS TIME.

Keir moved into his new flat this week and we've been having to to and fro like yo-yo's - but hopefully he'll settle down over the next couple of weeks.

Korin hasn't got into Derby uni - she is most upset.

Did pick her car up though and HOPEFULLY, it looks that way anyway, that it's a good one. WE HOPE.

Tired, worn out - housework and all the to-ing and fro'ing etc.

I need to lose about 7lb's before starting my new job. WAS 13.1 - distgusted with myself - so will post weekly and HOPE that by the time I start I shall be back to 12.7 - gotta try.

Signing out.

work tomorrow.

2010-04-18T14:39:00.001-07:00

what more can I say, it's good that SHE isn't in - well I suspect she isn't she changes her hours and days to suit herself but expects me to 'run everything by her'. I am terribly ashamed to say that I'm 54 and bullied. I was a self confident woman before starting work with her.

How I hate her.

I hope tomorrow is OK and the rest of the week, I feel thoroughly ashamed I allowed HER to make me bite back last thursday and the boss to hear the argument. I have managed to not let HER get to me since Christmas but it's been so so hard.

Anyway, I hope things are OK this week, because I really don't know if I shall cope with it when she's in on Tuesday..............................shaking head and feeling really low.

I HATE LIZ WOOD WITH A VENGEANCE

2010-04-16T15:17:00.001-07:00

that woman I work with is the most vile, horrible, nasty, stinking, fucking shit bag you could EVER have the misfortune to work with.

I pray that my new job comes about soon because I really don' t know how much longer I can cope with her - I have put up with her immature nasty vile stinking ways towards me for 16 months and it's got to stop.

The last two weeks my life has been hell again, she has called me a liar on about 12 occasions again, about 50 times since I've worked with her. I do not lie - I just go to work to do a job and SHE will not let me get on with it - she nit picks and nit picks and nit picks until I bite back. I try so hard to just ignore her but she is ON AT ME THE WhOLE FUCKING DAY.

How I wish she would go home and break both her legs and have to have the next month off work whilst I move on to my new job.

I realy do not wish her any harm - OH what am I saying - I do, I hate every bone in her body for what she has said and done to me over the 16 months I've worked with her - she has hidden things and kept things from me and given me wrong information and just made my life difficult and unbearable.

I cannot cope with her any longer. I cried all the way home again yesterday - I cried myself to sleep. I woke up and the first thing that came to my mind - was her.

I hate her - I really really really hate her.

I don't know where I ache the most !

2010-04-12T06:34:00.000-07:00

Yesterday after my last blog entry I decided to cut the back lawn for the first time, it was quite overgrown and it took about an hour and half to do the lawn and all the edges, I ached when I got in, but this morning my legs weren't that good.

FORTUNATELY I had today off - got Hubby to drop us off at Derby University for Korins interview for the Photography course. We were up and out by 7.30 am and got to the university at 8.30 am - practically the first there. Interview was supposedly at 9.30 am but then found out to our dismay that EVERYONES interview was at 9.30 am..........................Fortunately I told Korin to keep up front and make sure she was one of the first interviewed. I don't know how she did it because she normally hangs back and lets everyone in before her, but she was the first one interviewed and we got away by 10.40 am. I knew that Key would be tied up in a meeting at 10 am to about 11 so we decided to get public transport:

walked from University to the local'ish shop to get money out for bus fair............about 15 minutes walk.

Waited for bus - bus arrived - going the wrong way - walked over the road waited for bus and got bus into Derby town centre.

Walked from bus stop to McDonalds for a burger - far too busy - decided to walk back to bus station to get bus to Burton-upon-Trent.

Bus dropped us in middle of Burton - walked through to McDonalds - really really busy so went to Subway - ate a quick sub of the day and then walked up to Burton railway station and got the train to Tamworth.

Walked from Tamworth town centre up the glascote road to home - got home at 1.40 pm.

We left the college at 10.40 arrived home at 1.40 - 3 hours - EXHAUSTED is NOT THE WORD.

Work tomorrow - BIG sigh and depressed about it because she's been there today and no doubt left me NO work to do whatsoever.

Hate her. Hope to hear from new job this week - fingers and toes crossed.

Wish Koz had heard that she had that job she went for interview for last Monday - never mind huh.

What a strange old week huh

2010-04-11T14:34:00.001-07:00

Keir and Oliva came over for dinner on Easter Sunday - I've probably blogged that already.

Monday was a nice relaxing Easter Monday - Key worked - and I scrapped. Cooked a meal for him to come in to. Got everything ready for work.

Tuesday - went to work - SHE came in and within 10 minutes had started - I hate her with a vengeance. Cannot describe how she turns my blood cold with how vile she is - I wish my new job would hurry up - but I'm still waiting.

Wednesday morning I woke with the most vile of headaches - it was terrible and I felt boiling hot. I just couldn't go in to work - and spent most of the afternoon in the loo, not sick - just the other end which explained the 'hot-ness' I experienced all day long.

Thursday I had to take Korin to the hospital for her ultrasound scan - I still didn't feel right but much better than I had on Wednesday - her scan was OK and the radiographer said he couldn't see anything at all - although the gall bladder had rather a lot of fluid in there - whatever that meant, Korin didn't querie it and I wasn't in there with her so we'll have to find out off the doctor when she gets the results - I couldnt' wait to get out the hospital though it was mega hot - with me not feeling too marvellous too.

Friday I had two reflexology treatments and took Korin to the doctors - and I managed to scrap all night long - feeding my other new blog too - looking up loads of new 'altered' sites - I'm really getting into that now.

Saturday and Sunday I have spent time crafting, doing a bit of housework, doing long walks with the dog to try and get some weight off - I have gone up again - and would love to get rid of half a stone before starting my new job - my trousers would then fit much more comfortably.

Korin has lost a stone.

I miss Keir being at home.

Tomorrow sees Korins interviews at Derby University - I don't know if her heart is really in this, or whether shes just doing it for something to do........................Imight be very wrong - and I hope she loves it when/if she goes - I think it will do her the world of good.

NOT AT ALL LOOKING FORWARD TO TUESDAY as I am back at work with SHITBAG. I hate her hate her hate her hate her hate her.

Time for bed.

Easter Saturday

2010-04-03T13:03:00.001-07:00

Another crap day at the shop. Very disappointing. Will it ever take off properly ?

This picture I took from the frame and thought it would be damaged. It's not. The photo is over 21 years old. I can't believe how young we are in the picture. Someone has stolen all those years. They have gone in a blur. I am so sad that we are 54 years old and that time has whizzed by.

Have scrapped all day too - did a bit of housework but not a lot. Got Keirs and Olivias washing done.

They are moving on 22nd. I felt they didn't want us there - Olivias mom and dad are coming down for the day. I hope I've read it wrongly.

Key in bed early - 9 pm as he's going fishing tomorrow. It will do him good. I'm cooking a turkey dinner and Keir and Olivia are coming - if they come. It seems that they say yes and then change their mind. I hope it's not me.

Good Friday

2010-04-02T10:10:00.000-07:00

This is one of the ATC's I made today - it's made from a beer can.

Easter Already, where has this year gone to already huh.

Been crafting today - ATC'ing to be precise - for Precious on Do-Crafts................she sent me 5 lovely ATC's and I've had 2 weeks to send her 5 and haven't gotten round to doing them. I finally sent in my Navy inchies and have decided to pull out of the monthly inchie swap now so I can do more ATC's and start to think about doing some LO's maybe.

I am tired today.................

SHE was vile yesterday - whats new. Two references are now in Gill says she gave me a good reference and I think Ann did too - just waiting on my Occy Health report and as (HOPEFULLY) there is nothing wrong with me then it should be full steam ahead for an early May start. Fingers crossed.

I am still angry about being forced out of my job by that shitbag, but I need to get away from her negativeness - We hadn't seen each other for 4 weeks or thereabouts and she came in from Tuesday to Thursday talking to me vile and accusing me of dong things I haven't done. I hate her with every bone in my body - I HATE EVERY BONE IN HER BODY.

2010-03-30T15:03:00.000-07:00

Here is Keir and Olivias new home - it's a lovely flat and I am as proud as punch they've done this themselves and sought it out and spoke to the managing agents and saved the money and done it. JUST hope that the chap is a genuine decent guy and that they are happy in their new home.

I am not looking forward to move day - I am fed up moving and I am tired, but once they've moved it should be a lot more settled for them. PLUS they will have shopping facilities close by etc - I wish them all the luck in the world. They seem so much happier to be moving.

What has been awful today was Mrs Nasty returned. She said 'good morning' - I don't know why because she then proceeded to ignore me for the rest of the day and turns her back on me. SHE I S SO SO RUDE - I hate her more today than EVER before.

Yesterday once more !

2010-03-28T12:35:00.000-07:00

I wish it was. As it is it's Sunday evening and nearly time for 24 - looking forward to that, but not looking forward to work tomorrow although that isn't so bad as I am on my own like usual on a Monday morning, what is bad is that this week sees the start of the normal working week as is with Mrs Nasty and myself. We haven't seen each other for over a month - i THINK and it's been absolute bliss. In some ways I cannot wait to be finished and leave. In some ways I am still angry that she has forced me to give up this job. The job is fine, all the people are fine with me - apart from her. I hate her more each day. So I really dread Tuesday.

I have though had a good weekend in the house. The new lounge has been chipped away at and boxes emptied. I have bought storage boxes for under the bed in the spare room and packed stuff away. Cleared out my desk drawer which is big enough for suspension files - for my bills and monthly stuff, I was going to buy a new two drawer filing cabinet but no where really to put it - I thought I could put it under my treatment bed but it's just 1 cm too big the smallest one I have seen. So I decided to pack away all the paperwork in the underbed storage for all the old stuff and just keep the up to date - monthly stuff in my desk drawer. SORTED.

I've tidied up my crafting stuff and made all my crafting stuff more accessible.

Yesterday was doubly busy as I took Korin in the morning for a new dress and shoes for Chloes party last night and then Keir and Olivia to Netto for their shopping. It's such a shame, they don't go out much and all they seem to do is shop for food and tidy the flat. I wish I could help them out more but we can't. IF they want to go to the cinema this week I might treat them.

I think things will be better for them if and when they move to nuneaton as there is more things to do and a bigger town to explore etc...............................They're proving to be coping well, I am chuffed to bits really.

I just wish Korin could meet a nice chap now and settle down, but she doesn't go out much to meet anyone.

I managed to do a bit of crafting - get up to date with my 52 in 10 project which I'm following on UKS with Scrapdolly. Having said that, everyone else is producing LO's and I'm just doing a little book. I don't feel that I can produce any LO's at all - haven't really been making LO's for over 12 months.

I have a 5 swap ATC's to do this week - so better get started on them after 24 - and bed early. Good news (and bad) is that I haven't got any reflexology tomorrow night or Tuesday. I might e going over to Keirs new flat on Tuesday afternoon to see inside OR might pop to our Marians and have an hour chatting - that would be good, haven't done that in a very long time.

So......................better go get on then.

Almost Friday 26th already

2010-03-25T16:37:00.000-07:00

Have my preemployment interview tomorrow afternoon after doing a reflexology in sutton - got to go to rugeley. I am exhausted after today.

Got Key a new quilt and cover and got bits and pieces and finally set up my crafting space better than it was everything more to hand, might encourage me to craft more.

Sorting out the lounge as the sofas should arrive on 9th April'ish - there is still loads to get rid of in the lounge I really don't know what we are going to do with it all? MIGHT parcel it up and put it in the shed until we decide or shall I just be good and Feng Shui it and chuck it all away?

Decisions Decisons.

Friday 19th March, 2010

2010-03-19T08:01:00.000-07:00

Shock and horror that South Staffs PCT applied to Ann for my reference. I thought they'd take up references after offering me the job - they then sent me a conditional offer - but I had to go and see ann and ask for her to send my reference off. She looked awkward. I didn't like to say that 'you know exactly why I'm leaving' because she must be as sick of Mrs Nasty as I am - I wish I had never said anything in the beginning and just told Mrs Nasty what I thought of her from day one - although she would have taken me to HR rather than the other way around.

Anyway, filled all my stuff in - contacted Gill White as my other reference and now just need to contact the HR at South Staffs to arrange a pre appointment interview - it's all appointments, I might have to have an appointment too at Occy health, although , thankfully and hopefully I don't suffer any illnesses - God Willing.

Have ordered loads of crafty goodies - I will probably close this blogger down when my crafty one is up and running and once I've left my job I won't have anyone to moan about 'blush' - it will be wonderful not having Mrs Nasty to contend with on a daily basis - she saps my energy so much. Hate her with a vengeance.

Happy 19th Birthday Korin

2010-03-16T01:50:00.001-07:00

Happy Birthday - going out for the day with Korin - and Pizzahut tonight with Dad and Keir and Olivia too - hope it's a good one.

Lots to do - LOVELY day off though and without Mrs N ............. what could be better.

Mothers Day tomorrow

2010-03-13T15:09:00.000-08:00

I think I shall ring Christina - she's the closest to having a mum - I miss mom so much. Bit upset that Key had to ring Keir to remind him to go get a card as we wouldn't see him tomorrow. Korin has bought me the 'This is it' DVD, Michael Jackson - watched a bit of it - watch the rest tomrrow.

I am having a restful day tomorrow, I hope - lots of crafting - bit of washing - bit of tidying, but as I'm off for Korins Birthday on Tuesday then I can do stuff on Tuesday.

I am so tired, don't know what is the matter with me.

Heard nothing more about any jobs !

OMG - I cannot believe it

2010-03-03T16:05:00.000-08:00

Will say more when I know more. So excited to be away from HER ! 15 months of HER has taken it's toll on me, I was seriously down yesterday. A few weeks only - bloody brilliant.

2010-02-28T04:36:00.000-08:00

this is the rose - done with ordinary paper and pva'd - it's come out well. Might just get the grungepaper though to have a go with that and grunge it up and sparkle it up - so so scrumptious.

Awful week

2010-02-26T14:54:00.000-08:00

Well - was with HER - hate her more everyday I have to work with her.

Heard from big job - no interview - gutted, but know that I wouldn't have liked the hours anyway. They said they'll keep my name on file - but don't they always say that anyway?

Korin heard from DM too - no interview, no job. She is gutted too - she is so desperate for a job, wish something would come along for her too.

K & O at her moms for a week - hope she wants to come home? - home being here with K.

My ear infection cleared but I now have a large boil right by my R nipple - it is SO SO painful.

Heard from doctors and more blood tests - with boils and ear infections it worries me that it might be diabetes. Although it can be diet controlled - I hope, so will have to knuckle down. Wated to lose some weight before interview on Tuesday..........................Got to turn trousers up and have bought a new cardigan too to look a bit smarter - I hope.

Real tired tonight.

Grungepaper Roses - everyone is doing it doing it doing it - cutting out six petal flower templates and grunging it grunging it !

I just looked at how much I have spent on craft stuff over the last month - THIS has to stop. I have gone from spending virtually NOTHING to spend spend spend again, little 'wins' on ebay can easily mount up to £20 - £25 a week with P&P - two trips to Hobbycraft another £25. Metal paints £10.................and I went absolutely crazy on the MM metal toppers - it really has to stop. I know I earn, but at this rate I'll get us back into the red.

SO - didn't buy the grungepaper at £6 for a 12x12 piece - was very tempted. HAVE though painted PVA onto paper and cut out flowers and made the rose and the petals stay put. IF I can I shall add a pic - it's not the best rose ! - but if I grunge it up with tim's alcohol inks - or sparkle it up with cosmic shimmers - I think they'll LOOK OK - I probably won't make anymore now ! Tee Hee.

bloody hell, just realised it's 11 pm again.

Goodnight.

Had an ear infection all week - couldn't wait to finish work on Thursday

2010-02-20T16:49:00.000-08:00

I felt so bad. THEN I had to go to Cupronickel to give keys over and take meter readings etc. Couldn't do the water - it's hidden outside somewhere ! - We gotta go back on Sunday morning to check this...........................I can't believe how quickly 6 months has whipped by. B UT I didn't think 8 months ago that we would be where we are today. I am a lot calmer.

Just wish I could find another job - and the job is better pay. Haven't heard from the big one that I wanted to hear from - that would have been MARVELLOUS.

Korin hasn't heard from DM either - and she is pretty depressed about it all. Keir and Olivia came over yesterday, it was nice to see them - they had tea and then we took them home again.

I did a bit of crafting today - but my ear is too bad to do much, want to sleep all the time. I did manage to clear out the little cupboard in the hall too and I was pleased about that. We need a set of shelving in there so it'll sort the stuff of the floor - but everything needs sorting really. Gotta start on the 'middle lounge' tomorrow after getting water reading at cupronickel and going shopping and doing bills and paperwork etc. Weeks just mingle into months.

REALLY want to lose a stone now - and quickly.

Very very tired again tonight, so better get to bed.

Goodnight.

2010-02-16T08:12:00.000-08:00

Cupronickel is now CLEAN - it took me 2.5 hours on Saturday and 3 hours on Sunday - to clean carpets, and clean the floors downstairs and windows and fridge and freezer and cooker and utility etc. I shouldn;t have left it so mucky (it wasn't really) but I want our £850 refunded if we can.

We hand back on Thursday 18th - a week early, but we really need the deposit back - IF we can. I can't see why not though.

Keir and Olivia are thinking of moving, I don't blame them because that flat is just so so cold. Spring is on it's way though, so it's not too much of a rush. Just glad they're thinking of moving providing they can afford it.

We are praying that Key will get some bonus, but we don't know. BIG changes again at his work. It is a worry. BUT I think he'll do OK with his new boss - hope so anyway.

Not talking about my work anymore - just getting on, but I have a heavy heart every day.

Tired and worn out. Have a reflexology treatment tonight. Hope it goes OK at Hannahs.

It's mighty cold outside, the ice was real thick on windscreen this morning.

Ah well...............................getting on, cook tea and get over to do this treatment. Korin waiting for news on Drayton Manor Job. I really pray that she gets it and it'll give her something to go out and do and pay for her insurance on a car when she passes her driving test.

applying for jobs left right and centre

2010-02-09T11:07:00.001-08:00

My crafting space as it is now - it's about 5' at the bottom of my bed - would like it - eventually all done up with the storage boxes from Ikea that everyone has, but can't afford it at the moment.

I don't want to leave - but I know that she will make no signs of retiring even though she is 66 this year (I think), she says she loves the job, yet she is so so miserable. Vile today, sneakey over changing her time without officially sorting it - Oh how I hate her.

Anyway, It'd be nice to get a new job and move on from her. My job is nice, I kinda like the people I work with and I am upset that she has made my life so unbearable at work and is my immediate cow-orker......................so I've got to leave, IF I CAN. I could take it as constructive dismissal, but I don't want to, I have had enough. I am tired of using up all my energy trying to stay strong when she's around. Oh how I would hate to be her. I suppose I should feel sorry for her. BUT I DON'T because I hate her so much.

Well, have a lot of scrapping to do...................don't know if I fancy doing it - a treatment straight from work tomorrow - SHE isn't in - YIPPEEEEEEEEEEE. It is so nice when she isn't in.

and then tomorrow I might scrap.

Shed coming tomorrow so will take some pic's - maybe scrap-a-shed.

Tee Hee.

2010-02-04T15:22:00.000-08:00

In real life this is much more shiney and sparkly - used stickles, it's a belt buckle off DD's belt - 5"x4" and I shall use it for a mini album cover. ME thinks.

AND 2 ATC's I made today - tonight ! - for swaps on UKS. Want to get my Grey 'inchies' done tomorrow night and sent this weekend, then I think I am going to go crazy and do loads of swapping on PW and COC and UKS - I hope if I can keep up the momentum again.

(this is in a soft voice and quiet cos I said I wouldn't mention HER - but she's been vile and sickly nice this week - STILL hate her).

I have

2010-01-30T17:04:00.001-08:00

read back over my blog and realised that that shit of a woman has dominated my life for the last OVER 12 months. IT STOPS TONIGHT.

I hope.

I pray.

I am going to start to enjoy my working life again - SHE WILL NOT REIGN SUPREME.

Things are going to change. She won't like it - but she doesn't like me being a nice person anyway.

Starting tomorrow - NO MENTION - I'm just going to get on and do my job.

End of a lovely week. Well not quite.

2010-01-30T08:49:00.001-08:00

Have scrapped today (Saturday) unusual for me, but we've had a very hectic week and I feel shattered.

Bad news that Key has to pay nearly £500 Tax - I'm getting Nearly £400 back though - but still have a bill of the accountant of about £300 what a nightmare.

MUST get my hair dyed tomorrow and maybe up to rented to clean the carpets??? BUT I think I want a more relaxing day as I'm back at work on Monday - SHIT . Well, MOnday isn't so bad it's Tuesay I dread and will dread even more because boss lady is off and so I will have to contend with Mrs Nasty who thinks she's the boss when bosslady isn't in. HATE HER.

So Tea time? What to cook.

A week off - we needed it.

2010-01-28T14:42:00.000-08:00

Me Moos

I say a week off - Key had to work Tuesday and working tomorrow Friday.

I had to work on Monday and Wednesday and Friday - Monday at work work, and Wednesday and Friday doing reflexology customers which I had to cancel over the move and Christmas and the bad weather.

So I really on had Tuesday and today off - but it was very nice.

AND .................... Key managed to get my curtain pole up on Tuesday, and my blind in treatment room today and the tracks for the vertical blinds in my bedroom today too - I've managed to get half the vertical blinds cut and up and they look very nice.

Everything seems to be costing a fortune though.

3 treatments tomorrow and Keir wants to come over to go to game too - and I have to take and pick Koz up. No rest for the wicked.

I managed to finish my moos and was REALLY pleased with them.

I now want to get on with my 52 in 10 - that's 52 LO's in 2010 scrapdolly is doing on UKS. Now, I'm not doing 52 LO's - I've made a little book and I will do my interpretation in that little book for the 52 LO's - I still have my 365 journal - 365 pages which I really don't know what to do with. I can't just throw them all away - I need to deconstruct each page, save the photo's and save the embellishments where possible. BUT that will be a massive task. I can't keep them though, they're 12x12 albums - loads and loads and loads of stuff.

I also got all my stash tidied and sorted and it's made me feel much better.

I have settled real well here. I love the house - if anything I wish it was slightly bigger, but I have gotten used to it.

Now got to get down to the other house and sort the rubbish and clean carpets. We are waiting on a chap sorting out the shed for us too - once that is done Key can bring up the stuff we are having to store !

One thing after another one thing after another one thing after another.

'sad face'

Tired and worn out

2010-01-22T15:09:00.000-08:00

SHE came in Tuesday and within a couple of hours was going on and on about my holiday next week. I told her I wasn't arguing with her in 2010 and if she didn't like it - go see boss lady, she did and boss lady says we can't be forced to do each others days - SO WHEN I MISSED MY MOVE DATE BECAUSE MRS NASTY COULDN'T DO MY MONDAY, THAT WAS A PILE OF SHIT THEN !

Hate her with a vengeance.

AND ..................... Key had car accident today - thankfully they (him and Koz) were OK. God forbid. I don't know what I did wrong in this life to have all this fucking shit day in and day out.

we found the lake !

2010-01-17T12:37:00.000-08:00

quite by accident - but when we first reserved our house back in July, Karen the Sales Woman said there is a nice lake to cycle round, or walk the dog round etc - well we found it today, went for a walk and stumbled across it really.

THEN we put the new wardrobes together. I didn't expect the wardrobes to be much from Argos - it was a three door robe and one of the 'reviews' on this wardrobe said 'try as I might I could not get the doors to match up......................WE HAD EXACTLY THE SAME TROUBLE AND we couldn't get the back matched up either - obviously completely out of true - they look 'complete and utter pants'! BUT it;'s a wardrobe. So now we have to search out some wardrobes for Korin too - and NEXT year when we have the extra money we can have some nice wardrobes built in to that top 'dressing' room - as it is this month sees us pay the LAST rental payment for Cupronickel.......................£750 for absolutely nothing. JUST hope we get our £800 holding deposit back which will be some kind of compensation. FINGERS CROSSED.

We still have to go up to the rented to get the place clean - and put the two chairs 'out' for the bin men. We HAVE to get a shed errected here and the 'extra's which are at the rented into our shed before 23rd February, so we have ABOUT A MONTH. The last month has flown by, so we had better get our skates on.

Thinking of having 3 days off week after next so we can get curtain poles up and blinds up and the like....................we just don't seem to have much time for anything these days.

Good news that I got my child benefit reinstated, didn't realise that it had actually stopped and when I rang to change my address they notified me that it had stopped and they backdated payment and that went into my bank on Friday, I AM EXTREMELY IMPRESSED BY THE CHILD BENEFIT PEOPLE. I am going to SPEND half of that EVERY MONTH COMPLETElY AND UTTERLY ON MYSELF. I'm not selfish, all my salary goes into the house - I think both Key and I should START to spend something on ourselves - HE can have the OTHER HALF.

It was nice to go pick Keir and Olivia up for shopping yesterday. I gave them twenty quid, poor things !!! I'd love to win the lottery and see them OK, See Koz OK, See a few friends OK. Dream on.

I gave Koz her driving lesson money too - AND paid for her application to Uni - it's going to be an expensive expensive expensive time.

Back at work tomorrow....................say no more, it's not too bad tomorrow because I'm on my own. DREAD Tuesday unles God can work some more magic for me. THAT'd be real nice.

Not in the mood at all for crafting? Think I have too much on my mind from everything else.

There IS a God.

2010-01-14T11:00:00.000-08:00

I must admit that going to sleep last night, all I could think about was HAVING to go in and see HER yet again today......................she is just a vile woman.

Well I said 'Please God, let it be a good day & if possible no ... '. I arrived at work and the boss man said '... is working from home today' - WELL I just couldn't get my hat on - how you CAN work from home in the NHS is beyond me - BUT thank you God because I had a WONDERFUL DAY.

Yippee - Pray that you can see your way to making her have ALL of next week off too - now that would be a miracle.

Laugh

2010-01-13T13:42:00.000-08:00

She is making herself out to look so stupid with the things that she is upset about with me! AND I am loving it. I'm not antagonising her, i'm just getting on with my work and she's hating the fact that I can just get on with it now rather than keep having to ask her - although today I asked how to do something which I had forgotten on the word processing and she was so bulshy and nasty and sarcastic. Hate her, but coping with her now.

AND I GOT MY MELTING POT - yippee......................not very good results though yet, but it's early days and I need lots of embossing powders = different colours and the like. Looking forward to playing when I have more time.

Things are settling down at home - feel more comfortable now, sofas ordered, need to get a shed erected so we can clear out the rental garage.

Weather still diabolical though.

SHE back today

2010-01-12T11:39:00.000-08:00

It was hillarious.....................she comes in and very nicely says good morning to Geoff - and then a very downgraded morning Gill to me. I said 'morning' and then she totally and utterly ignores me for the next 2.5 hours - SHE IS SUCH A LAUGH. SUCH A PLEASURE TO WORK WITH. GIGGLES ALL DAY LONG. Nah, not really, I think you know if you look at my previous posts - SHE looks like MOST DAYS she is sucking a fucking lemon. But it does make me giggle now, I don't get upset by her anymore, I just think how fucking sad the woman really is.

AND I had a nice day, because I'm not allowing her to get to me anymore. AND because I finish at 2 on a Tuesday and Wednesday now - the hours seem to go very quickly. I got home for 2.30 and took Koz shopping, think my melt pot is at the post office and we called there but they were closed so I STILL DON'T HAVE MY MELTING POT. Oh poo.

Quite looking forward to tomorrow now...........................it's such a pleasure to go to work.

Happy Birthday to Me, Happy Birthday to me !

2010-01-11T11:28:00.001-08:00

I was well upset this morning. No body got me a card or anything. OK partly my fault, I always say, don't get buying cards they're a terrible waste of money, but I really mean, don't get buying expensive cards a 99p one isn't so bad.

DH tried very hard by sending me an ecard - it was good, but he knew I was a bit upset. DD was then upset cos she had already said she would buy me a new blouse for my interview, but the weather being so diabolical we hadn't gotten out to go get one - she still offers me a blouse, but she has no money and not working - so I couldn't take it off her.

Went to work. No one there knew it was my birthday - I hadn't told them. Thought that Monica might have remembered but she hadn't. Then Keir rang to say he wanted to go to cinema and could I take him. I said no because it was MY birthday. He was then upset that his dad hadn't told him it was my birthday. I thought he would know it was my birthday.

Anyway, then a nice surprise was DH rang to say we were all going out for a meal to the new chinese buffet in Tamworth, it was lovely although the kids didn't relaly enjoy it and I didn't know that Olivia hated Chinese. Ah well, you can please all of the people some of the time and some of the people all of the time but not .....................................

AND to add insult to injury, waiting for my melting pot, really looking forward to a play tonight and found that they hadn't sent the melting pot, just the melting pot metal pan - poo.

Joined a MOO swap on UKS, looking forward to that.

Happy Birthday to me then. Sad isn't it.

54.

What a week !

2010-01-10T09:15:00.000-08:00

I changed Monday for Friday because Mrs Nasty needed the day off - I know I should have said I couldn't do it - but I'm not nasty.

Monday spoke with staff agency and they said they'd put me forward for the job in Lichfield. I was off Tuesday - did loads of running around for Keir and Olivia etc - and then it started snowing really badly and came home and spent the day in - should have got accounts done, but I feel really tired and as if my ear infection is coming back again.

Wednesday went to work - ok walking in - walking to my car and I slipped and really hurt my bottom back / bum......................still sore today.

Thursday had to go to staff agency to register with them.

Friday I had an interview at 'said job' - the interview went extremely well and by the time I had got home they had rang staff agency and said they were interested in me and could I go for 2nd interview next wednesday.

By the time I got home I had decided that I cannot go for the job - threw me a bit that they'd been so interested in me and rang whilst I was driving home to get me to go for 2nd interview. I don't think I could cope with 40 hours a week - as much as I want to get away from Mrs Nasty. I like my job - but I hate my coworker. I wish she would retire, but she won't. SHE would if I left first, I think.

I don't know what to do - shall I go for the 2nd interview and see how it is? Could I cope with 40 hours a week? EVERY WEEK ! It would mean getting home at 6.15 everynight instead of 4.30 and 2.30.

My ear infection has returned and I think it's tooth related, I must get to the dentist and maybe doctors AGAIN.

I am tired. Worn out - don't know what to do.

Have finished accounts but there was a lot missing - I think we must have burned some stuff when we moved from Denyer Court.

I love this house - but I miss Denyer Court - I didn't think I would.

My birthday tomorrow. I haven't remeinded anyone, we'll just see if they remember.

2010-01-05T06:06:00.000-08:00

Snow to the left of me, snow to the right - here I am in Lychgate Close.

Marian said on the phone - the snow here is terrible, within half an hour it's 2" thick, we had nothing. Within 20 minutes of finishing on the phone this is what we had - looks pretty - looks lovely when fresh, but dread how cold and icy it will be to walk in tomorrow to go to work.

Yak.

SHE is off for the rest of the week YIPPEE and I'm off today to wait in for Argos delivery - it has come but they wouldn't take the wardrobes upstairs for me !

Started sorting out my accounts stuff - nightmare - don't know where half the paperwork is, maybe in the garage at Cupronickel.

Got addresses to change over.

A shed to get - boy are they expensive!

Bought a 2 seater and 3 seater sofa on Sunday - NICE.

Will be settled soon. Love it here, but next door neighbour keeps parking outside our house and that really does my head in !

Saturday 2nd January, 2010

2010-01-02T16:56:00.000-08:00

I have been looking through the challenges on UKS this year and nothing really grabs me - the girls on the 365 thread are doing a fun thing but it's basically blogging and I really want to try and get my LO scrapping Mojo back - whether I will or not remains to be seen.

Once I have done my Accounts for the accountant I can settle down again to do some scrapping properly, I hope.

I have JUST ordered my Ranger Melting Pot and UTEE and Craft Sheet - nearly £60 but this is a Christmas Gift and will be part of my Birthday gift too - WHO's KIDDIN !

Anyway, it will be picked on monday and posted then (I hope) and so Tuesday or Wednesday I will be able to play, CAN'T WAIT.

We've just spent a lovely night - having a good ole laugh with our old mates Georgie and Paul. It was lovely to see them. It was nearly 3 years ago the last time we saw them, with one thing and another it has been difficult. We hope that 2010 we manage to see them more regularly.

Must keep in touch more with people, Linda & Linda from America - Georgie and Paul and Cheryl - they've all said about meeting at the hospital and having lunch. I could also introduce them to the Mental Woman I work with !

Anyway, gotta get to bed.

Happy New Year - 2010 Already, who would have THUNK

2010-01-01T13:40:00.000-08:00

It was a quiet lonely night for us ! Keir and Olivia at their flat - we got them a takeaway on us.

Korin and us had a takeaway which was lovely - then Korin went out. We basically watched loadsoftv until it was time to pick Korin up. I really wanted to come up and scrap but didn't like to leave DH on his own for New Years Eve. To think of all those parties we used to get invited to. No one seems to have many parties these days.

As I said too SHE - SHITFACE at work had already tried to ruin my NYE, but I aint gonna let her get away with ANYTHING in 2010 - I've put up with enough shit - now it's payback, I'm going to give you RIGHT BACK everything you say and do to me over the next 12 months LETS SEE HOW YOU ENJOY YOUR WORKING DAY huh. When she is being vile I will say 'right, let me just say that back to you what you have just said to me' - I hate every bone in her body.

Scumshit LIZ WOOD !

SHE (Liz) strikes again

2009-12-31T12:21:00.000-08:00

I really think the woman has a personality disorder - I hate every bone in her body - I feel so sorry for her husband, he must must must hate her too. SHE is VILE and EVIL.

She had to make sure she RUINED my New Years Eve - she called me pathetic. I REALLY THINK SHE NEEDS TO LOOK CLOSER TO HOME.

I hope I get a new job early in the New Year and can give in my notice - I WILL, however, go in for constructive dismissal because she makes it impossible for me to go into work.

Liz - FUCKING LIZ !

2009-12-29T14:31:00.000-08:00

nothing more to say about her - things are gonna change.

Already 27th December - nearly 2010

2009-12-27T16:25:00.000-08:00

Christmas Day was a good day - during the day - the stresses though of being in the new house, not remembering where anything was and 5 people at one stage standing in the kitchen area - got me jittery and we all had a bit of a bust up on the night. BUT then everything was OK again.

Went to see Sherlock Homes on Boxing Day - it was good, although it was slow in places and found myself wondering off - Key fell asleep towards the end ! Keir and Olivia didn't come as they were asleep.

So today 27th - we went off looking at Sofa's and Wardrobes and beds - expensive to say the least - so will have to be bought in bits and pieces and added to the house otherwise it will just clear us out completely. Marian and Dom came for tea - it was lovely to see Marian, haven't had chance to sit and chat for a long long time. Must make the effort to go see her regularly again.

WE have decided, that Key and I that we shall have Christmas Presents and I have definitely decided upon a Ranger Melting Pot - don't know if I shall use it regularly, but love to have a go and hope that it's something I really do want !

So 28th tomorrow and Key returns to work - as in the Shop. Have invited Janet and Keith and John and Chris over for tea - and asked Keir and Olivia to come too - Key's off Tuesday as I go back to work ! AND I have to work then up to New Years Eve - the time goes by so quickly.
I wish that Claire (who always had parties on New Years Eve) was having another party this year, although it would mean meeting up with the old neighbours and them wanting to know where we are now living etc - it would be nice to have somewhere to go for a change - I miss the parties really although they had become mega boring at the old house. Went into Lichfield today to do shopping, I much prefer Lichfield to Tamworth to shop - I miss Lichfield in that way.

Will have to shop again Tuesday after work to get stuff in for a dinner on New Years Day.

Acutally did a Layout - albeit about the house moves over the last 3 months.

Thinking of doing a project of the 'Noughties' - how my life has changed in the last 10 years.

Gotta get to bed.

What a strange week or so

2009-12-24T15:40:00.000-08:00

moved on 16th - then the leak under sink 17th, then the shower overflowing 18th and 19th stayed in all day because of the burst water pipe in roadway and the tremendous cold and ice and snow !

So finally got my christmas shpping done for food on 20th and worked 21st to 24th (today) Happy Christmas - exhausted to say the least.

Went to cemetary and crematorium and Aunt Lils - what a shame, she's so frail now - and 90 on 28th - terrible way to celebrate your 90th - she can't remember much and sits and sits and sits and watches a dull boring wall paper. How sad.

Anyway SHE at work has been really nice this week - so it's brewing.

I won't stand her in the New Year though - thats a fact.

Keir and Olivia coming over for Christmas lunch - looking forward to seeing them.

Tired, got to get to bed but want to make sure that over this Christmas period I want to scrap.

Well it's 23rd December and we did move on 16th

2009-12-23T14:15:00.000-08:00

BUT only just. Barclays Bank - I hate you ! You caused us so much grief. No one wanted to help us - and I was very angry, but we did move in, by the skin of our teeth and the house IS Lovely.

Got the food shopping on Sunday after the move, got the rest of the Christmas presents on 22nd - Christmas can be done quickly - everything is either prepackaged or frozen, but hey ho (as my mate viv used to say) it's done.

Spent a fortune, and really concerned about the bank balances for Christmas but nothing can be done now, we have to settle down after Christmas and get on with it.

SHE at work has been sickly sweet this week - I am so sick of being lulled into a false sense of security and then she hits me when I'm down..................and the boss-man had the nerve to ask me 'are things any better' - I didn't want to shout at him and say no they *ucking well ARE NOT she either ignores me, rips me off a strip over stupid silly things or is sickly sweet - I hate every bone in her body and I would like to stick a *ucking broom up her arse and make her *uckins swivel on it. BUT I basically said that things hadn't improved much and he said 'well we have tried to sort it out' AS IF it was my fault. I WISH I had NEVER given up the Snowdome job and gone to work with HER, but that is hindsight.

Anyway, another job in the pipeline at £1000 a year more but is full time, it'd be nice to get a new job in the new year and be able to tell them to SHOVE the other job - I have nothing against anybody there, or the job, ACTUALLY I quite like the job, I just HATE Mrs Nasty with a vengeance.

So.....................gonna try and get on with things and ignore her like she ignores me.

It'll be very hard.

Very tired.

Looking forward to having the kids over for Christmas day and us all being together enjoying our festivities. I HOPE.

Nearly Christmas.

time marches on

2009-12-12T12:40:00.000-08:00

already 12th December and completion on the house is on Monday ! We have to pay the final balance monies and so our accounts won't look very healthy for Christmas - but we will be in our new OWN home for Christmas day.

Have worked like a mad thing today tidying things out and the rubbish again that we have collected in 4 short months - it's a nightmare.

Sad night last night when Rhianne left us - I felt awful having to ask her to go, but we just do not have the room at the next house. She text Koz telling her that we had been very welcoming and like the family she never had - I was in bits - went to bed crying my eyes up. 2009 has been the worst 'emotional' year of my life. I am fed up crying over everything.

Mrs Nasty has been VILE again at work - and ignored me whilst the boss was away - then talks sickly sweet when the boss comes back - I hate her so much, I cannot describe how much I hate that woman.

I had my lovely 'yellow inchies' from the swap on UKS and they are so gorgeous. I have had to drop out Decembers inchie swap and Christmas inchie swap though because of the move - even though we think we shall be online again by about 18th - I just won't have the time.

Still got my cards to send - although I don't send many because of giving to charity instead, and Christmas shopping to do. I am getting into a bit of a dither as I really have so bloody much to get done and working Monday (I certainly wouldn't ask Mrs Nasty to work my monday when she couldn't do it last time for the last move as she was playing golf) - PLAYING GOLF my arse, I wish I could ram a golf ball down her bloody throat.

Enough already.

Will pack up my craft stuff on Tuesday, Key's off tomorrow so we can get the garage sorted, Key's off Monday so he can get quite a bit done then, I'm off Tuesday which will be my craft room and any extra stuff. As we have this rented place until February, there is no rush to get everything to the new house - but we need to get the large items on the removal van and over to the house. Se need to get a large shed errected too as we don't have a garage. The house is lovely, small - but lovely.

I am an emotional wreck - I cannot believe how my life has changed in the last 12 months and in the last 2 years in particular. BUT if nothing changed we'd all be very boring people.

Slimming world - I have lost the grand total of 4.5lb's - in a month ! better than gaining, but I;ve not done too well the last two weeks - staying the same week before last and gaining half a pound last week. I have Sunday through to Thursday before my next weigh in and I am determined to lose 2.5lb this week so I am at half a stone off and a further 3lb's the week after so it'll be 10lb's for Christmas day - I think that is DO-able.

much better day food wise

2009-11-29T12:50:00.000-08:00

Have eaten SW properly, must lose at least 2lb's this week.

Shock and horror - my MOT is due tomorrow ! Had to text boss to say will be in late, Key will come with me to nearest MOT centre and take me to work - hope they can MOT my car ! - HOPE it passes - it's a terrible worry that I might not have it for Tuesday and TAX is due too - so don't know what I'm going to do.

Nightmare really. I should have checked earlier, but really thought it was about 15th December when we bought the car - didn't realise they (the garage) registered the car on 30th November.

Ah well. Might have to go to work by bus and/or train. THE NIGHTMARE !

Have had a relaxing day. Done three ATC's for the Christmas Swop on C.O.C.

Terrible day for food !

2009-11-28T13:42:00.000-08:00

the 1.5 I lost I have probably regained since Thursdays weigh in - so gotta get back to SW properly tomorrow otherwise I shall be disappointed by weigh in on Thursday. AND Christmas celebrations really start now - John and Chris's on Saturday night for a 'large' tea, so much be good good good. IF I manage t lose 2lb's this week - that'll be half a stone by 3.12 - 10.12 I could be another 2 down (9lb's) and 17th (11lb's) so by Chrismas eve I could very well be a stone lighter - really must must must try now.

Keir sold his bike - he was so sad to see it go. I have to remind myself that I am glad to see the back of it - it worried me every time he was out on it, but then he's getting a car and he wants a fast car and that worries me too - but at least they can come visit us when they want to and we won't have to keep doing all this too'ing and fro'ing. I do miss him being at home though.

Korin needs a job, I hope something comes up for her very soon.

Ashley from the sales office (house) rang today to say that it's more than likely going to be 11th December - completion. I don't know whether to stay here or move before Christmas? This place is such a mess - carpets need cleaning etc - but at new house we will need to have a large shed erected and the internet and phone put in and sky before Christmas - it all seems such a rush when January we can take our time. Oh the dilema huh.

this last two weeks have gone in a total blur

2009-11-27T23:57:00.000-08:00

2 x 40 hour weeks - BUT IT HAS BEEN SO GREAT BECAUSE THE SHIT I WORK WITH WAS ON HOLIDAY ! but I am absolutely exhausted...........................dreading Tuesday when she is back, trying not to think about it. People have though, volunteered 'critisisms about Mrs N' this last fortnight - I didn't get drawn in or talk about her, just realised that she's the same vile nasty shit to everyone. One person said 'She's so far - up - herself and an absolute snob'. It fitted her like a 'T'.

Ear infections have finally cleared up.

Have almost got a completion date for house of w/c 14th - will PROBABLY move on 15th - dependent on whether we can pack this place up and get everthing over there?

Tired.

Keir sells his bike today and getting a car - thank goodness.

Korin down because she is NOT getting interviews - hope she's OK.

Key worn out - but off tomorrow, we will have to have a rest tomorrow.

Still got to sort my ATC's for Rhonda and C.O.C Christmas Swap.......................not really doing much with UKS - I go through these phases.

Slimming world first week lost only 3.5 lb's but couldn't say I was real good on the plan. 2nd week I was quite diabolical on the plan for the first 3 days and then got into it and lost 1.5lb's so I was quite happy with that and 5lb's down in two weeks - could be that stone for Christmas if I get my knickers into gear !

Will try.

That's me - VERY TRYING.

Tee hee.

I bin and gone and done it

2009-11-13T15:17:00.000-08:00

went back to Slimming World .................. they're an OK lot - by the sound of it - quite a few very successful target members - hope they 'take me in' and include me. I usually go to slimming groups with someone - the last twice was with DH......................ah well, it had to be done. WASN'T as heavy as I thought I might be - 3 - 4 pounds lighter than I thgought, but STILL around a stone to lose, hopefully before Christmas ? - do-able I think. Well, Ive done it before anyway, but when I was much younger.

AND although you can basically eat and eat and eat on SW - I found that I was hungry today. Gotta get into it properly.

Will go look at house tomorrow.......................I reckon we should be moving in 4 weeks time - just in time for Christmas eh, but we knew that.

My ear infection, I thought was getting better, got excessively worse today and had to go to the doctor again. I gotta stop prodding it with things !

I am wacked.

Got so much on my mind.......................Kay wants all the accounts too and I haven't got a clue where everything is - boxes everywhere, this house is a tip - but we can clear it out to move to our new house and then come back here to clean carpets and finish sorting the garage and getting stuff to the tip - I HOPE.

REALLY want to do some crafting the weekend as I haven't had much chance to do it - and I want to send a set of 9 ATC's to Rhonda. 2 ATC's for the Christmas Swap on C.O.C. Get back to doing a few ATC swaps on UKS too - I hope if I can keep the ATC trail going, must post a 'we need you' I thought I had but it's gone AWOL unless it was taken off by a moderator?

Good news is that I am without Mrs Nasty at work for 2 whole weeks - lets party ! Bad news is that because she is away I will have to do 2 x 40 hours weeks, which lead into another good news thought that THEN when we move I will have 24 hours to take - which is almost a full normal working week for me..................although SHE can never cover a monday for me - so I can use 21 hours for a Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday off.

Gotta get to bed, I am tired. (AND HUNGRY)

Gotta shop tomorrow for 'good' foods for the SW plan as me and DH and DD are all going to have a go at doing it - I would love to go back next week having lost, at least, 5lb's which would take me into the next 'Stone' barrier.

Fingers crossed. - and mouth stitched up. Tee Hee.

Tuesday 10th November already

2009-11-10T11:58:00.000-08:00

Don't you just think that GOLD LEAF is so so scrumptious.

Love this ATC. EXCITED TO that RHONDA my lovely American friend loves ATC's - I'm so hoping she's going to get 'into' it - ATCmaking that is and swap with me and others. It would so help her to relax and enjoy her life a bit more - I think. She's arty - and lovely. I hope she does.

Awaiting a completion date on house - reckon it might be in the next two weeks - end of November, early December ! I think.

Really busy this week with change in hours at work and reflexology customers, plus next week and the week after my COW-orker is on holiday for a fortnight - THANK GOD.

strange week

2009-10-31T01:51:00.000-07:00

my DS was 22 - we took him and Olivia out for a meal at Wing Wah Burton, it was absolutely lovely - they enjoyed it too.

22 huh - 22 years ago. It's all gone in a blur really, miss him as a baby, miss him as a little boy, he missed so many years being so ill and isolated. BUT I am so happy that he's getting himself together now and sorted.

Korin didn't get her job back - we didn;'t really think she would. Tried to contact this area manager to get something sorted for her to go back to work today but the area manager is rather cagey too - I feel really sad for her that at Christmas-time she hasn't got a job AGAIN - she's really down.

House is very advanced and looks like we shall have to move in end of November - which will leave this place empty! and us two further months to pay on rent at £750 a month - nightmare, but we did save over £15,000 on buying this house.

Will go up t house today and see how far they've got on with plastering - need to go in the week to see the site agent and arrange for tiling in bathroom to be full height, now Karen has left there we don't know whom to contact.

Mrs N - WELL she turned NASTY into NICE this week - so what is she up to - she hates me, yet is nice to me - something is definitely brewing.

OMG my poor daughter

2009-10-24T13:17:00.000-07:00

they were absolutely vile to her at work - why does this happen - it's power mad people, trying to put others down. She is trying to get her old job back tomorrow, but I think it might be doubtful? Other than that she'll just have to do what she has to do to try and 'fit in' but I know how she feels.

our house has come on in leaps and bounds and I was concerned that it was too small - but I have to remember that I've been in the showhouse and it's bigger than the rented we are in - it goes back far - whereas I've been used to two houses that were 'WIDE'.

Feel really down tonight for Koz - poor poor soul, she was in bits. Rotten stinking bloody people, why do people get a kick out of being horrible to others?

Saturday again already - got to pick Keir up

2009-10-24T04:36:00.000-07:00

take him get his bike.

I did an Aldi shop this morning only to find at check out that it was cash only - couldn't go get cash and go all the way back to had to forget my shopping - as IF I don't hate shopping enough huh.

Hope the picture of my latest 'glittery' background comes out OK, if so will post it here. No can't get a decent shot. Have uploaded ATC's for penny and loralee in case they go missing in the strike at least I can show them then a picture of what they might have had. Tee Hee.

Not a lot happening, AM doing crafting with Monica and Linda tomorrow afternoon - I hope, all being well etc. Will be making a folded 12x12 BIA book - I think, unless they want to do something they've brought with them?

Korin started at Quiz.

A keepsake for my friend Rhonda.

2009-10-18T06:31:00.000-07:00

2009-10-17T05:45:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since I uploaded some of my crafting stuff. Not really been doing any LO's just bits and pieces, lots of techniques and ATC's OF COURSE ! Here are a few which is for Paper Wishes Site on the Net - I don't know what has happened to the Circle of Crafters website though - just cannot get on.

Just finished doing the housework for the weekend, better get the washing on and walk the dog then go do some shopping as there is virtually nothing in - Keir came over to bring his bike AGAIN to the repair shop and I gave him all the food we had as they had nothing and they have no money - I worry that they won't make a go of this living together, just hope Olivia manages to get a job - Keir can't, he wouldn't cope with a job yet.

So better get on then. Feel wacked ! Monica was going to come over this afternoon but couldn't make it. I feel that we aren't 'as good' friends as we were? I don't know - maybe just feeling down with all that is going on in the office AGAIN - we have been ordered to get on and shut up otherwise it'll be official Disciplinaries - I am so upset and shocked and now there is no chance of a transfer and I've ended up having to work with her. I just wish she would retire.

PLEASE RETIRE !

It is COLD out there.

2009-10-13T14:31:00.000-07:00

October 13th - real real cold - well it IS October......................the weather has suddenly just changed though.

It has been good at work - wish it could have been like this since I started there, HOW I wish I hadn't wasted 10 months of my life. I just cannot understand why this woman has been so awful to me - why she puts me down at every turn. BUT this week has been good again, hope it remains that way - but I don't think it will.

I am really tired. So much to do with regards clearing all the stuff out in this house before the next move. Havne't really done much since we moved in.

CHRISTMAS is approaching fast. NOT buying the kids much. Korin is having a car as soon as she's nearing taking her test at about £1000 - we are paying for her driving lessons too - £20 a week - Keirs just had £1000 to set up in his flat - and no doubt we shall have to pay next months rent too (£430) as they don't have it and they havne't sorted their housing benefit. It's all a bit of a nightmare with our NEW house almost built and being ready ahead of target PLUS paying an extra two months rent AND council tax on this place. Trying very hard not to think about it really.

Ah well, we got this far - we can see the next few months out and then HOPEFULLY we shall be settled.

Gotta get to bed, SHATTERED.

MOnday 5th October, 2009

2009-10-05T14:06:00.000-07:00

2 days time my mom died 24 years ago - how quickly the times goes by, but I would never forget her, she was such a special, lovely mother. I was truly blessed to have her.

Well a lovely day at work today - how nice to say that. Mainly because Mrs Nasty wasn't in and the Patient Manager got me doing some work for her that was REAL interesting. It was great to feel needed. Mrs Nasty grabs any decent work, I end up doing all the crap stuff. Still hate her. Have about 20 jobs applied for. I would love to stay in my job, but cannot work with Mrs N - only as long as it takes to get out. Can't wait until my last day and I can tell her what a nightmare it has been working with her. I'll see if I can get some of the 'filing' done tomorrow which another manager said needed doing - it'll be a few hours out the office. I hope.

Days go by so quickly.

DS and his girlfriend came over after the meeting with Carol and was staying for tea. DD was again in a real bad mood and the house was like a tip when I got in. DS and GF decided to go home. I sent them home with baked potatoes and corned beef and beans - I wish I had more money to give them. Such is life. 3 years ago we'd have been able to help them considerably, now, well we are still watching the pennies.

Never mind, the exciting thing is that he is happy, well at least I think he is.

I hope he is.

He is.

I can't wait for the weekend to begin ..... well

2009-10-03T13:53:00.000-07:00

it's Saturday night and already nearly Sunday ! I hate sundays cos it means work on Monday, although Work on monday means no Mrs Nasty so it aint too bad. I like the job, I know the job, I can cope with the job, but I hate working with her. I try so hard to forget her, but just about dread Tuesdays.

Hopefully getting 2 hours off on Wednesday afternoon to take Keir to get his bike sorted out. Poor bugger there is always something. Got to sort his rent out too.

He wants us to take some more stuff over tomorrow, and chairs etc. I love how they've got their flat. I am so proud of them they're doing OK.

Korin in tears tonight - and this morning before work. I think she's finding College tough, and working - I wish I had money, I'd help her out more. She has a lot to shell out this year, we'll have to do it, of course. We're paying for driving lessons and with Keir paying us back for the bike we'll save that up for a car for her. I wish I could let them off with everything, but, of course, we can't. I wish I could pack my job up, because of her, but I can't, we desperately need the money.

Anyway, next week the bosses have found us filing - 53 and a filing clerk - to think that I was an office manager and ran my own business, very successfully for 13 years, it's upsetting, but never mind eh.

new pics of the house - I reckon it will be ready BEFORE December, then we have to find 3 months rent and 3 months mortgage and 3 months x 2 for council tax also. SHIT huh.

Today I nearly didn't go in and was going to tell them to stick their job up their backsides ....

2009-09-30T10:57:00.000-07:00

I couldn't do it. We need the money. I hate going in to work. SHE apparently loves going in to work. I hate her.

Boss came in and basically said 'you just have to get on with it' - 3 months ago the same boss was telling me this was bullying in the workplace and I NEEDED to take it further and sort her out once and for all. How quickly he has forgotten - NO HELP THERE THEN !

SHE comes in today and is sweetness itself. I hate her - she is a bully, I hate her for that.

It was a good day because she was nice. I still hate her because she is so false and has double standards.

And yet another day tomorrow with her.

I hate her.

I have cried all night long................

2009-09-29T14:24:00.000-07:00

this is what I posted last Thursday - or ABOUT last thursdays events:

"EXCITING (kind of) NEWS ! - I had to see HR on Thursday as my grumpy, nasty, vile, stinking cooworker has drove me crazy for a number of weeks - she hasn't really been that much better but it's been copable for the last 3 months or so but the last number of weeks I could easily smash her vile stinking face in. BEFORE the HR meeting boss tells us that one or other of us needs to help out in another department for about 3 months - I wanted to jump to the opportunity, but didn't - SHE is saying she wants to share this job - Something else she wants to cause me troubles over - anyway, it will mean that I don't have to work with her directly for 3 months which will give me breathing space and maybe in that 3 months I can find another job - HOPEFULLY - I applied for 7 jobs this week-have had 4 rejections, how sad is that !BUT ...................... things have got to be better with her out of the equation - I cannot abare that woman".

Our boss lady didn't speak to me yesterday about this job which was available, so asked boss' understudy to speak to the other boses about the job today and the higher management had both me and shitface in the office, THERE IS NO JOB - it has been given to someone else, my heart hit my boots. THEN boss man tells us off basically, directing a lot of the upsetment at me, basically saying that we are silly little women - and that we JUST HAVE TO WORK TOGETHER and GET ON. That is an impossibility - immediately the bosses left SHE starts again and argued with me. I have come home in tears for the 30th time since working with her. All the way through the meeting she called me a liar again - WHAT gives this woman the right to keep calling me a liar - I AM NOT A LIAR, that woman would try the patience of God. I hate her, I wish her harm and that upsets me to think that I can think that way, but 9 months of harrassment and bullying at the hands of her - I do seriously wish her lots of harm. I hope God forgives me, but I would sincerely like to know WHAT I did in my lifetime to deserve ending up working with her.

Saturday 26th September, 2009

2009-09-25T23:50:00.000-07:00

Well, I NEVER EVER thought I would see this day - well, yesterday to be precise - My son moved out and into a flat with his girlfriend. I am so happy that he has found someone, SHE is lovely, and they're happy together - they are always laughing. I hope son that you now LAUGH your whole life through because you deserve every shread of happiness that comes your way. Well done to you both. We love you.

I ache all over though! Moving here was stressful and emotional, but the physical move was done by the removals company. Driving to and fro the flat and the walk up and down those stairs upteem times, my legs feel like lead today and had to take ibruprofen.

My house is a disgusting mess - they have left their old room in such a shambles! Still loads of stuff to take over. I am waiting for a phone call to take a few more items over and try and get this house into some kind of assemblance.

Took Korin to work and did some shopping - now going to tackle the house - I feel exhausted though. Such is my life.

EXCITING (kind of) NEWS ! - I had to see HR on Thursday as my grumpy, nasty, vile, stinking cooworker has drove me crazy for a number of weeks - she hasn't really been that much better but it's been copable for the last 3 months or so but the last number of weeks I could easily smash her vile stinking face in. BEFORE the HR meeting boss tells us that one or other of us needs to help out in another department for about 3 months - I wanted to jump to the opportunity, but didn't - SHE is saying she wants to share this job - Something else she wants to cause me troubles over - anyway, it will mean that I don't have to work with her directly for 3 months which will give me breathing space and maybe in that 3 months I can find another job - HOPEFULLY - I applied for 7 jobs this week-have had 4 rejections, how sad is that !

BUT ...................... things have got to be better with her out of the equation - I cannot abare that woman.

Sunday 20th September, 2009 -

2009-09-20T15:50:00.000-07:00

house will look like this - but it's only at 2nd stage build at the moment.

From my beautiful house to a smaller version and then onto my new new house, hopefully in December - hope it's not delayed although we've got two months rent to find as well as the mortgage then!

Where has the last month gone too. We had every intention of opening all the boxes that are packed in the garage here and on landings and in corners of rooms etc - and we have basically done nothing, I suppose we are still worn out from the move and the 6 weeks prior getting here. The new house is coming along nicely and must go and get some more pictures taken. Work is terrible, Liz is still vile but pretends to be nice and my friend - I still hate her. Can't help it - she spoke to me derogatory again this last week, AM I really supposed to just take it and let her talk to me any way she wants. SHE still grabs all the work that comes into the office, and puts me down. What a vile stinking woman she is. AND now work is so quiet I am worried that they might not keep me on - I pray that I keep my job, even though I have to work with the worst woman that you could EVER have the misfortune to end up working with. I pray she retires, but I don't think that will happen, they'll carry her out in her box - but that will probably be me before her as she's KILLING me slowly but surely.

Anyway, some pic's - at long last.

Tuesday 8th September, 2009

2009-09-08T14:26:00.000-07:00

have missed out all the exciting stuff - NAH not really. We moved on Tuesday 25th August, 2009 to our rented house. Well lets get the timeline done!

Liz wouldn't cover for the move on Monday - I hate that woman! we signed for the rented place on the Monday instead - it was all so hecticl. We didn;'t get back til about 5 pm on Monday 24th and then we had absolute loads to do - but got to bed by 1 am. 25th went in a whirl of a day - and I didn't really get time to say goodbye to my lovely house - HOWEVER, now I have moved it;s made me realise that it wasn't a lovely house, it was a financial burden and it was also so very difficult to keep clean, I was so tired keep cleaning.

This house is tiny in comparison but easy to keep clean.

Will upload some pic's when I'm online properly.

Gotta go.,

Saturday 22nd August, 2009

2009-08-22T15:32:00.000-07:00

Took Korin to work, shopped - home, walked dog, had lunch started on the dining room. All boxed up and table down and sweated buckets !

Cooked a dinner, collected Korin, took Korin to Tamworth, came home and did my treatment room, all ready and boxed up now.

tomorrow I have to do all paperwork = quite a bit to do, wish I'd done it today now ! - Will pack up my bedroom and Korin and Keir and Olivia doing theirs and finish packing up the rest of the other rooms. Monday night will have to pack up the kitchen - OH and I defrosed my chest freezer today too - and washed the dishes tonight - all whilst my son and his girlfriend sat and watched TV...............................things have to change around here when we've moved.

20th August, 2009 - EXCHANGE OF CONTRACTS

2009-08-20T11:51:00.001-07:00

My 32nd Wedding Anniversary today - 32 whole years, how quickly has that time gone by. Officially we don't own this house anymore................................how very sad is that. I've loved this house, but it's a lot of cleaning. I am tired. I am fed up cleaning this house. A week at work and it looks like a bomb has gone off - KIDS do nothing all week. So tomorrow I have loads of paperwork to do for the move - arrange the removals for Tuesday NOT Monday. Ann my boss point blank said I couldn't have Monday off because SHITBAG (and there is NO other word for that woman I work with) said she couldn't cover my Monday because she's playing golf. I always cover her Friday's - well maybe it's time that I can't.

I'm fed up being nice. I am playing her at her own game again now - she is a pathetic waste of space.

So Tuesday is fast approaching have so so much to do, hope I am ready.

Goodbye house - hello new life with money - I hope.

19th August, 2009

2009-08-18T23:11:00.000-07:00

Contract Exchange today (hopefully) - bittersweet, I could sit and cry - I've loved it here. Got to go to work, going in late, really feel I can't be bothered with anything. Moving on Monday to a rented place which is real nice, but NOT my home.

Bought house ready in December - we believe - so another move to look forward to. Excellent huh.

Saturday 8th August, 2009

2009-08-08T13:47:00.000-07:00

Where has this week gone - all we have done is sort stuff out and go to the tip and box a few things up. STILL have loads to do, but we have definitely broken the back of it all, and our own backs to the bargain too.

So very worn out. Just hope that we can move in two weeks time - I really need to move in two weeks time ! I need to sit and rest at night, not clean, tidy out, box up, bag up, go to tip, clean up and start all over agian. I vow that my next house WILL not get into such a mess. I think because this house is big you didn't notice the 'extra' stuff everywhere. In a smaller house we will have to get rid of stuff as and when - HOPEFULLY anyway.

Probably gained half a stone this week too with all the extra's we've eaten !

Monday 4th August, 2009

2009-08-03T12:45:00.000-07:00

I am so tired. I am worn out. I am an emotional wreck. Everyone keeps asking for money - money that we really don't have spare ! All I can think of is that within a few weeks we will be in this NICE rented place which is similar to the house we are buying and a few weeks further on than that we shall be in our own new house - HOPE, PRAY, that nothing goes wrong. I don't think my mind would cope with any more disappointments and upset. fI have mentally moved out - I don't mind leaving here, I just wish it had all happended and we were settled.

Bag after bag after bag after bag for the tip and unbelieveably the tip wasn't open today - 3 bed's have to go in the tip too - book cases and bag after bag after bag. Cleared Keirs rooms today and there was just so much rubbish - wish he could have come and sorted the stuff himself - but he didn't. Have asked Claire if we can put his bike in her garage as Keir only wants to come back the day before starting college - Bank Holiday Monday!

This is our week holiday, we should have been in Devon - God only knows what we would have done it we had gone away - there is just SO much to do ! We are really and truly worn out.

Mortgage now sorted and new house being bought

2009-07-25T06:31:00.000-07:00

Saw a rented place last monday it would 'do' but can't say we were overly enamered with it! Seeing another place tonight similar to what we are buying, it is more expensive - but would be a better accommodation (we think) - we'll make our mind up when we've seen it tonight. Our house won't be built until November/December.

Kate and David have been to measure up for a massive extension on our property - on their property. I felt sad....................when we moved here I thought how wonderful it all was, MY ideal home - I was so proud to live in such a lovely property in an exclusive place. I still do feel that way , but it is FAR too big for us - I am fed up cleaning all the time and it costing us all this money every month. It is nice that the house will have Lovely new owners. I am pleased they bought it.

Keir dropped a bombshell. He and Olivia wanted to rent a place in Burton when he goes to college. I said 'you can't afford a flat in Burton' - he said he knew that, but they want to be together. 'Mom, can she come and live with us' - I said we'd have to see how things go. She is a lovely girl, I am real happy they've found each other - but I don't know if I could cope with another woman in the house? - IF it did happen, they - them both - will have to help do the kitchen, cook their own meals 5 out of 7 days, walk the dog, Olivia would HAVE TO find a job and they'd both have to contribute to the household bills ! What a nightmare.

Going to see this rented place tonight and then to the new house to take photo's see where they are up to - I'm concerned spending all this money in rent when we won't have to live in it.

Ah well, it is ONLY money !

What an emotionally charged week

2009-07-18T05:15:00.000-07:00

Mortgages are so hard to come by - we got it - everything sorted, got declined !! NEVER EVER in 32 years of marriage have we been declined.....................turns out that 3, 8 & 9 months ago when I didn't receive a statement for a store card and I didn't pay it - well I did pay it but paid it late they registered me as defaulting in payment. I am devastated. Had to do an experian credit report which shows that we are excellent payers on the mortgage and electric and gas and everything else - just these 3 stupid bloody payments and it's stopped them offering us the mortgage on the new house. ALL is not lost - our current mortgage company are looking at it - and have sounded much more positive, PLUS now we know why it was declined (DECLINED) I really CANNOT believe it, that it was declined for a stupid amount of money - anyway, fingers crossed we hear on MOnday. I really cannot get my head round this - NEVER EVER missed the mortgage or ANY OTHER bill = just those 3 payments on that ONE company and it WAS THEIR FAULT.

Anyway, seeing 2 places to rent on Monday and the mortgage chap coming to sort everything out. My head is spinning, trying hard to clear stuff out - but finding it difficult having to stop to make phone calls, work, reflexology, walking dog, taking kids here there and everywhere, Key working.

Nightmare really.

Well.

2009-07-12T11:37:00.000-07:00

Financial advisor been - and it all looks OK, the criteria for mortgages have all changed and we have to put 'more down' than we envisaged and we had hoped to be able to give the business more of a cash injection than we can - but we have to have a roof over our head. WHICH does worry me because we have to go into rented for 3 months whilst the house is being built - we don't know if we will get a rented place with a dog and two cats - it is so worrying, but I'm sure it will all work out OK - well, I really hope it does.

So - things are moving.

My interview tomorrow - don't know if I want it, but it's full time and will be better than having to do my reflexology every night and have let downs by people and then no income because they forgot or couldn't make it etc. How our lives have changed in the last 2 years. So drastically. BUT it hasn't done us any harm.

Feel good today because I haven't got to go to work tomorrow - so I know it's time to move on when I dread Sundays because of work the next day - although Monday's aren't that bad as Mrs N isn't in.

Right, dinner time and now I am definitely back on my diet too ! - and then a bit of scrapping ATC's.

Life has been mad this week - completely and utterly

2009-07-08T15:24:00.000-07:00

WE SOLD THE HOUSE - I just hope and pray that the next 6 weeks won't be too hectic and I have a nervous breakdown. I am absolutely dreading getting this house cleared out ready to move into PROBABLY rented accommodation and then move into a new home which won't be ready until November - but at the same time I am extremely excited. I love my house - I don't want to leave - BUT I DO, we need to. If in the mean time we win the lottery - I will stay :) Goodbye my beautiful hard earned house.

Nice couple that have bought it - they'll make a killing on this house in the next few years, we just don't have that financial time - the business needs the money now. How I wish we could go back two years.

Never mind eh. I am sure we will be happy in the new house.

The exciting thing is that Keir has a girlfriend - and he is with her - I just hope he doesnt' have a terrible set back and sleeps for a month when he comes home. BUT he's nearly 22 I have to let him get on with his life and I hope he just COPES as best he can. Can't wait to meet her.

Over to new house tomorrow - the decision. Hope Key likes it - HOPE I like it on 2nd viewing.

As of Saturday we start clearing and tidying out - contacting Solicioros and financial advisors etc etc etc - dread it - but it has to be done.

It doesn't cease to amaze me

2009-07-08T15:21:00.000-07:00

How people can receive ATC's and not bother fulfilling their obligation and sending back - AND people receiving and not acknowledging. One of the girls has written to me to say how upset she has been too that people don't acknowledge your hard work and got me thinking - I have taken ages over some ATC's worked hard on backgrounds, and used lots of embellishments which aren't cheap and realised that people haven't acknowledged them.

I've therefore decided not to do as many swaps as I was - which is a pity as some of the girls ATC swaps have been stupendous too -

I always try to ensure I acknowledge and upload and be thankful for others hard work. It's sad huh.

AND MORE

2009-07-08T15:20:00.001-07:00

and another few ! Phew !

2009-07-03T15:12:00.001-07:00

these are from a swap in America.

These are 3 I've made to send to america.

These are from america.

And these were for an English girl on UKS (I think) - I'VE HAD THAT MANY SWAPS GOING ON , lost myself a bit.

I'm now in the July inchies too - awaiting June inchies on UKs. In the July swap on C.O.C and July Lottery C.O.C - have one more lot of International UK Trail to send and wanted to try and get up to date on the SLYMI - but that's kinda gone out the window.

Not a bad week with Mrs N - although she's still keeping work for herself and keeping work back. Boss spoke to me like an idiot a few times - sick of it.

I have an interview on 13th - DS has a girlfriend - I am so chuffed, hope they last together. Two viewings on the house - one is a Part Exchange - hope something comes from these and they offer a decent price for our house, otherwise we wont move. House is clean for a change but I am shattered. Might go view the Part Ex if they offer OK.

Not good news at the hospital for Key though - after all he's been through with his nose. Pity.

Did lots of backgrounds for ATC's tonight, getting together with Monica at the shop on Sunday -= I think if I don't feel too tired and have my washing up to date and housework etc - but with viewing tomorrow and shopping still to do and korin wants sandles - it's all a bit much.

Keirs off to Doncaster - hope it all doesn't do him in - and he has a lapse and goes back to how he was feeling and sleeping all the time.

MOre and More ATC's

2009-06-27T09:27:00.001-07:00

Michael Jackson died today - and another couple of ATC's I did today

2009-06-26T15:31:00.001-07:00

Poor Michael Jackson died today................... probably turn out that it was drugs, even though they were probably prescription drugs. BUT it's an end of an era. Makes me sad as he is basically my age and I was brought up on his music. Loved his music. Sad that everthing went so wrong for him. I don't believe the negatives. Just sitting listening to a tribute to him - BRILLIANT MUSIC - Thriller ..................................

love the background of both of these but moreso the leaves one, alcohol inks onto aluminium foil - love it

Thursday night and no work tomorrow

2009-06-25T14:04:00.000-07:00

A pic of Monica and Linda doing a bit of crafting - at our 'crop' if you can call it that. I taught them a squash book. We had a great afternoon - can't do anything now fora month tho, give me time to think up something else and put a 'kit' together too. I feel so tired all the time.

Well, I have some reflexology customers but no actual work work IYKWIM.

It's been a bad week. Everything that came into the office she grabs to do - there were two items in 'our' 'in' tray - and I said I would do the more indepth one - she says 'you can do that if you like' - the one that would literally take 5 minutes to do - I said 'I was thinking of doing this job' and she says 'oh, do what you want then' in other words she wanted to do the more indepth job and leave me with NOTHING to do again. She was like a whirling dervish around the office - she is now driving me crazy again - like it was a few weeks ago - HOWEVER, her attitude and the way she speaks to me IS much better currently and I think I can cope, but I don't know how long for, my temper wells up and I have to leave the office. She just doesn't play fair. I think our jobs might be on the line and she has admitted that she HOPE and prays that she still has a job after all the refurbishment etc. I don;'t know, she still hasn't shown me parts of the job and so IF anyone is going to have to go - it will be me, because I STILL don't know the whole job after 6 months being there it is SO SO frustrating with this bloody woman.

ANYWAY - scrapping - still ONLY doing ATC's and swapping which I love to do - it's so enjoyable getting little pieces of artwork through your door on a regular basis. AND everyone, so far (so long as they're not just being kind) have enjoyed the ATC's I've done and sent to them.

Will post a few here.

Gotta get to bed, exhausted from trying hard to keep my temper at work. Phew.

And another few ..................

2009-06-20T15:28:00.001-07:00

and a few more ATC's

2009-06-19T16:09:00.001-07:00

A few more ATC's - the leaf one I made myself. I keep forgetting to take pictures of the ones I make and send them - need to take pics so I can see if I'm improving.

Feeling pretty low and down. SHE (mrs N) has been sickly sweet, BUT also totally over the top, grabbing every bit of work that comes into the office and doing it before I can - it's really getting to me again, but I have to remain calm otherwise I will be back to where we were 5 weeks ago and I really couldn't go through that again. She's upset a few people this week with her comments and a couple of things have come out how she upset my prevous counterpart!

Keirs bike is in the garage again, don't know what is the matter with it - but it's jolting, it was very dangerous on A38 - I hope he hasn't bought a pig in a poke.

Korin hated the job and she's trying really hard now to get work - I hope she gets something soon.

Key is worn out - he falls asleep at the drop of a hat - he never has the time to sit and relax. I am worried. I too am worn out - worked all last week cos she was on holiday - then 4 days this week and was under stress with her - then all day today - my kitchen is a disgrace,.

BUT - what has to be has to be. Will go shopping early tomorrow, do housework the rest of the day tomorrow and Sunday Lin and Monica and I are meeting so I need to get the squash book sorted and all the materials for Sunday - they're giving me £2.50 each for providing the stuff. I shall give it to Korin - she had a fiver off her mate for ferrying her back home last night - so that'll be another tenner this weekend.

I've been spending far far too much on crafting - £17 on the mica powders, £5 on the mini misters, £7 on paint today and about £10 on ebay on various bits and pieces - that is in one week - that's £40, £40 I don't really have to spend on crafting stuff. I am back to how I was when we were 'financially well off' a couple of years ago. SO now it's got to be Mrs Goody Goody again.

AND at work too - big sigh.

A week has sped by

2009-06-13T15:39:00.000-07:00

The couple in Williams Avenue moved out yesterday and new people moved in. It makes me sad that we havent' had viewings.

I had a mad splurge and did quite a bit round the house today but you wouldn't believe it tonight, Keir walking in and out with his biker boots, Key cut the back lawn and grass everywhere and the dog moulting like there is no tomorrow - SIGH. I also shopped today so I don't have to do that tomorrow morning like I have been doing over the last number of weeks, it really eats into my Sunday. Having said that I have to take my car to Kwikfit tomorrow to get the tyre done and then I shall start using my car for to and fro work - only using Key's bigger one every so often to keep them both running. I love my old car and it should be a bit better on petrol and IF Korin starts working at the pub (she has a trial on Monday) then she might be able to afford driving lessons.

Just been thinking about our Janet and her birthday - my brother was 60 last week, 60 years old, I can['t believe that my brother is 60, how frightening is that. WE are all old now - to think that dad died at 50 and mom at 62, YEP it's pretty frightening. I would hate my sister or brother or even sister in law to die without them knowing that I love them - I'm doing Janet a squash book birthday card and trying hard to find a poem that would fit and let her know that she is my sister and I wished we;d been closer throughout our life.

Work - SHE has been exceptionally SICKLY nice, and I hate that too - but it's better than her being the vile person she was for nearly 5 months. Still wish she would retire. Things are happening at work too and people being redeployed , I hope I still have a job.

Monica and Lin and I will probably get together on Fathers day next week as Key is working and do the squash book I've planned - I don't get to do anything but they do. I will have to charge them this time tho as my scrapping supplies are going down and down as I don't replace stuff as I used to. Having said that I've spent quite a bit recently and REALLY must watch what I am spending. So easy little win's on Ebay and an item here and there - but I certainly don't want to give it away to my friends, they should be buying. Monica does - but Linda doesnt - so I will have to charge them for the supplies we use.

STill doing the ATC's swapping had loads - as you can see here.

Gotta get to bed, real tired again tonight.