wednesday 27th May, 2009

(this is my FIRST ATC swappee received - love it)

(this is for my COC swapee)

I have taken today and tomorrow as Annual Leave. I should have been getting on with lots of things in the house that have been neglected - I need to wash Key's suit. I have done the kitchen but it's raining outside so can't take the dog. It's 10 am and I should be ready for the day - I am not, sitting in my nightie - but I don't often get the time for ME time - so I am today. Got a reflex tonight too.

AND I AM SO EXCITED (I know I am very sad) but I received my first Swapee ATC today - from T-Ann on UKS (Tracy) it is lovely !! - will post a pic.

AND I've joined another swap on the COC (Circle of Crafters) and just finished an ATC for her - which I will post a pic of also.

Wish I'd done this AGES ago.

I really don't know.

I'm playing ball - I put the work into the basket we have created for the work coming in and then when we are free we take the work from the basket and do it - NOT her, she chooses what work she wants to do and does it - telling me that I can do this and I can do that and I can do the other!

I have applied for another job today, this is about my 15th since starting work in December - I have had about 8 rejections (bummer) about another 3 havne't responded so assuming they've gone and I've not been notified - I just WISH WISH WISH I could get an interview and another job quuickly - 5 months now of this - 4 months of the dreadful times - at least she's more civil at the moment. Too nice. BUT I STILL WOULDN'T TRUST HER AS FAR AS I COULD THROW HER.

I had to take Annual Leave tomorrow and Thursday as I don't think I could cope with how she is again at the moment, such an obnoxious woman - it's awful. I've got my hair to colour, some housework to do, can walk the dog for a longer time tomorrow too - do a bit of crafting. I have a busy reflexology day on Friday too.

She's off next week for the whole week, so it won't be so bad me being in - I don't mind the work, just hate being in when she is in.

Going to do some ATC's - I think.

And theres more !

My little FAT BOOK and very first FAT BOOK PAGE - took me ages to do this - but am looking forward to filling it up with all my old photo's and 4"x4" little LO's (Fat book pages)

SLYMI week 21 - scrap a song title

I cheated as I don't fancy doing a 12x12 this week - this is one I did a few weeks ago - it fitted the bill so I swapped it from my ordinary albums to my SLYMI album - hope I'm going to be able to continue doing SLYMI cos I'm really not motivated to do 12x12's at the moment.

ATC's - loving them at the moment

started an ATC Trail on UKS - hope it takes off - just decided that I wanted to do some swapping - have 3 to do - just done my first ever swappy ATC - hope the recipient likes it.

I really don't know how much more stress in my life I can actually take !

Keirs bike wouldn't start today ! I said, is there any petrol in it - 'I think so' - he messes with the 'timing' - I said 'when I've put the shopping away, I'll take you and get some petrol and we'll see if it's beause the petrol is so low' - he messed with the timing again.

He got stressed, rang his dad, dad rang the mechanice - mechanic said he would come out - comes out 2 hours later - Keir had pulled the timing lead straight out the bike, unscrewed it and the chap had to take it away - Keir really stressed now - I'm really stressed now.

2.30 pm bike ready - go fetch the bike - 25 minutes drive to collect - gets there to find that all it needed was petrol !! BUT I do think the timing switch must have been very loose for Keir to have pulled it out?

£100 repair bill. WHAT A NIGHTMARE.

I tell you now, I must have done something really bad in my life to have all this stress on a daily basis.................................I feel as IF I could sleep and not wake up. My head is like a vice. The thought of work and HER - the thought of home and this stress. It's too much.

I am so tired tonight

hectic week with the decoration in the office.
Been busy being on my own.
Been nice being on my own.
She was back today - it wasn't so bad. DIDN'T think I would ever say that again.
Would prefer to be on my own.
out of 10 job applications I have had about 6 rejections - BIG SIGH. It's just a numbers game I think these days - and my age (I think) is against me - although I have the experience. It would be lovely to get a job and be able to get out of this job........................and I need to work full time - don't know where I would find the time IF I'm working til 5 pm at night, but I would just have to do it.
4 treatments reduced to one tomorrow !! due to cancellations - although customer from tonight wants to come tomorrow instead so that enabled me to do some scrapping tonight.
Goodnight.

17th May, 2009.

Well. Tomorrow is Monday again already. Where do the weeks go to. Won't be so bad at work as Mrs N isn't in until Thursday. She was very nice on Tuesday and Wednesday last week - makes me think what is she up to? But I don't care anymore, just going in doing my job - not being too helpful, getting paid and looking for another job. Have applied for 9 jobs - have had 4 rejections so far - bit sad, but hope it's just a numbers game and will start to get some interviews very soon. There is one job in Rugeley which I really fancy and it's £17,000 to start, which would be very nice.

Took Keir today to see his new bike. I wish, I wish, I wish he was getting a car, but we cannot persuade him to get one and he wants another bike. It's a faster bike - PLEASE GOD KEEP HIM SAFE.

Korin didn't start her job - the woman is on holiday afterall and wants to start her after her holiday, just hope she does - as Korin is now desperate for money. I gave her a tenner last week to top up her money, and a tenner this week to help - she went out last night and lost a tenner - so that was a bit of a waste of money eh.

Need to take the dog out now - it's nearly 8 pm, but it's been torrential rain all blooming day long, and it's so so cold.

Well, I've been doing a lot of ATC's and keeping up with my SLYMI - so have included a few pic's on my blog of those - gotta go - gotta get kitchen done too - and my bag for tomorrow as well. Wish I was still just doing my reflexology from home - 30 treatments a week - how I wish we could go back to those days ! and with my teaching too - but due to recession - I'm looking for more admin work !

Don't know if I've shown this on my blog previously but I feel that this relates to me perfectly - ? - nah, not really.

My Cheque book style ATC book/album - came together well, have used the same PP's throughout and stuck the ATC plastic wallets in and folded them down to go into the Cheque Book Style Album - HOWEVER, I have only, as yet completed the first page of the album and have the back of this one pluse 3 other plastic wallets to fill - I don't think it's going to be successful enough and may have to make another one to put the plastic wallets into - making the pages thicker to accomodate the size of the ATC's when done. We shall see.

Another little ATC made from a Pepsi Cola drinks Can - waste no, want not - gotta use up everything I can, not buy unless I REALLY have to. Hate having to buy adhesives and glue - must cut back on the amount I use.

A Little ATC for my Cheque Book Album of ATC's - metal embossed, used gold alcohol inks and little hinges from a doll house to make it open - Love IT.

SLYMI, week 20 already - nearly half a year gone - soon be christmas - DON'T SHOUT AT ME FOR USING THE 'C' WORD.

Things are so much better at work?

I don't think I can trust her, but I will go along with this niceness because it's such a nice feeling not feeling so uptight about going into work.

I don't reckon it will last - I hope it does - we shall see.

A few of my ATC's

I was so chuffed Debbie on UKS actually said she would swap ATC's with me, I never looked on my stuff as being good enough for anyone to ever want to swap with me. Yep, I am real chuffed. Thanks Debbie for cheering me up.

A better week at work

just a little ATC 'toilet roll' book

Because she wasn't in. Back to working together for 3 days a week as of next week - WISH it wasn't, so hate working with her - feel stressed the days I have to work with her. Hope she does change - but I reckon she won't.

Been doing some ATC's - enjoying them at the moment, never really got into ATC's before. Certainly didn't appreciate all those years I worked from home.

KEIR WE LOVE YOU SON......................I wish I could make your life happy.

Korin we love you too. I feel very low and depressed at the moment and tired and worn out. I think Key feels the same. We have been on overdrive for far too long with everything we have been through and with Keir being so ill again.

Wish life was so much easier.

Been a slacking with regards to uploading stuff

part of a tag book I made of pictures that I have of Korin.

An exploding box for Lindas Birthday in August - got to embellish it all yet.

my first triple embossing and stamping into it - must get a new clear embossing pad.

What a week.

Korins been highly emotional because Keir is very friendly with her again and wanting to go out with her and her mates. She has no money because she gave up KFC and can't go out. Stress City. She does have an interview at Costa Coffee, hope she gets it and she enjoys it and earns some money - at last.

My last post told of the terrible HR meeting. SHE just said I was lying. She wasn't very nice the first day after the meeting. She wasn't very nice on 2nd day - however, things did improve somewhat between us on Thursday afternoon - and we were actually speaking like 'adults' - BUT she STILL hid work again? She wants to do all the ordering of stationery! She wants this that and the other done in the office! I think I am back to where we were about 4 weeks into me working there - it'll blow up, I know it will, she hates me to have any initiative, to do anything on my own bat, she very nearly started an arguement over me taking on a new trader, but if it were her, there would have been no problem. I am so emotionally and physically drained by this whole thing..........................tired and fed up.

Keirs friends went home. There was so much more to this but I can't go on about it here. Keir is now so lonely and realised how much he is missing out on. However, he seems to be trying to sort it himself and excluding me and his dad..........................I just hope he's ok, have to leave him to it and only help if he asks.

Terrible terrible week.