I am just so emotionally drained.

HR meeting today and SHE said I was lying - all through the meeting she didn't admit to anything - we've agreed to continue to work together, although SHE wanted to be split up, they said they weren't prepared to split us up ??? We got back to the office and SHE was very nice? BUT I know it won't last. Where do I go from here? I don't know. I am worn out.

Keir has his mates here

He really is completely out of 'entertaining people' - I hope they're not just using him as he's taking them to Drayton Manor tomorrow which will cost him £75 in total! I am worn out having someone else here - cooked a nice dinner and done kitchen.

I hope they enjoy themselves tomorrow.

Korin stayed out overnight - hated it really - She hasn't rang KFC and I AM SO ANNOYED with her over that. She supposed to be trying to get a job at Fradley Arms too - but so far, no sign of doing a new CV etc.

I am worn out - dreading this week - 28th is HR day.

Not a bad day at work yesterday

She leaves me notes !!!! She hates being left notes !!!!! I had to leave her notes cos there was quite a bit I couldn't sort as she had done the job and I din't know what she would do and had to explain what the problems was - no doubt Tuesday she will be in a vile mood because of the notes !! She'll leave me notes for Monday, but I'm not allowed to get annoyed over notes, not that I get annoyed over notes anyway - why am I having this conversation with myself !

Anyway, Dentist today, reflexology treatments, gotta get Key some jeans for work from asda as they're cheap but strong.......................I am extremely tired today. Hope I can scrap tonight.

Keirs got his friends coming for the weekend. I JUST HOPE THEY'RE DECENT KIDS cos I've not met them - fingers crossed he copes OK too.

Gotta walk my doggy - will try and relax a bit whilst doing so.

Gotta get some scrapping done, feel as if my mojo's going AWOL again !

Tuesday 21st April, 2008

Key's Birthday tomorrow ! Where do the years go.

Took Korin to college because I can - it's been 4 months since I was able to due to going back to work. I never ever FULLY appreciated how lucky I was to work from home for 12 years - now that I am back at working outside the home - it makes me realise how very lucky I was. Especially with all the difficulties at work with Mrs N.

I've got today and tomorrow off and fortunately she isn't in on Thursday so although I shall be at work - there will be no Mrs N (I hope) unless she's changed her mind, which wouldn't surprise me.

What made me wonder too - she rang at 8.05 am yesterday to see if I was definitely in on Thursday so she could have the day off - I wonder if she rang at that time to check that I was definitely in at 8 am - well check away lady, cos a lot of the time I'm in for 7.45 am.

I will never be able to trust her, but I just hope that HR can come up with something to make BOTH our day's a bit more bearable - cos I HATE GOING IN.

Keirs 2 hour motorbike lesson today - I shall take him and nip and have hair cut and then an hour at marians - I think.

Monday 20th April, 2009

And yet another week. Good news that I was on my own at work today - good news that I have tomorrow and Wednesday off - Good news that Mrs N rang me to ask if I was definitely in on Thursday as she wanted the day off - WONDERFUL a whole week without her.

Boss said she is absolutely sick to death of the whole thing. I told boss 'how do you think I feel having to work in this stress for 4 months relentlessly' - I also toold her that the biggest regret that I have is that I took the job in the first place, especially as I had a job at the Snowdome and decided on the NHS instead and chucked the Snowdome job - I REALLY WISH I HADN'T. I think she was a bit shocked. Plus I told her that I am seriously looking for another job because I really cannot stand working with this woman for much longer. My stomach churns as I hear her heels walking up the passageway into our office !! I really do hate her that much.

So, 28th can't come quick enough - but I don't really think it will solve ANYTHING? This lady will not change, for anyone, at all, i feel i know her so well after what she has put me through.

I HAVE TO GO TO BED AS I'M GETTING VERY UPTIGHT AGAIN OVER HER.

SLYMI WEEK 16 - gosh, week 16

I did the SLYMI which was to scrap in the morning, but as we had viewing today I decided to use the pictures that were taken in the morning for the brochure when we first put our beautiful home on the market - I don't want to move - I hate showing my home to people, I am not ready to go - maybe that's why we aren't selling, these people didn't seem overly impressed - BUT they are ALSO not in a position to make an offer either - stress !!!!!

I just love these .......................

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tz8BvSiop5Q

and

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

I am so totally and utterly worn out - tired, fed up.

Applied for a couple of jobs, just hope I hear something, it would be lovely to be able to move jobs and tell her EXACTLY what I think of her. I bed tho, if I do get a job and leave, the next person to start there she would be all sweetness to = just to make it look like it;'s been me all along. I so very HATE HER. BUT I am so glad - that I am not her, she's such a sad person and so unhappy in life.

Worked in complete silence - it is so awful, yet she keeps this up and says she enjoys her job!

It was just so awful today...............................

Key's in London. Korins the other side of Birmingham! I am really tired. Keir had the opportunity of having Adsee and his girlfriend come to stop over, but only, I think because they have been chucked out their house and when he tells me that this girl has been done for shoplifting and stealing - I had to say no. What a bloody shame when he's never had anyone to invite before. I think he was quite happy tho they didn't come in the end.

Too tired to do any scrapping - did have a treatment tho - Hannah. She's really lovely.

I walke the dog too tonight - unfortunately I have 5 hours with HER tomorrow. BIG BIG SIGH

God I hate that woman!

from the moment she came in - she started arguing AGAIN - My God I really hate that woman, role on 28th but if they can't do anything I really think I shall have to just leave the job, because I simply cannot work with her.

Had a lovely day - well 1 pm til 4.30 pm at

Curborough Craft Centre. Quite a few more shops than there was. Gabby has taken over the crafting supplies along with her husbands shop of pottery - which seems to be going really well, and I must admit her stash supplies were MUCH better than the old craft shop there. BUT there wasn't a lot I needed - and I ended up only spending £3.75 - I thought that was PRETTY GOOD FOR ME.

It was nice to get out and I think Linda enjoyed it too - I didn't enjoy the 19 miles trip to and 19 miles trip back to the centre (as I live very close-by) and then 19 miles back to Lindas and 19 miles home. I must admit I was shattered when I got in.

BUT it was nice to go out and forget about home and work for a few hours - especially work tomorrow, kinda dreading it - boss isn't in. IF SHE STARTS I am just going to say 'I am NOT arguing with you today - argue with yourself lady!'

Saw my neighbour at the centre - it was nice to see her, haven't seen her for ages and ages.

AND - there was a woman demo'ing (for me and LInda only) enamelling - it was great, she does courses. I am sure that Monica will be interested too - so will try and get Linda and Monica and myself and Linda's mate Sandra together to do some - love enamelled work. This lady also did encaustic art - but it was something so much better than I could ever do with my encaustic art stuff ! May practice tonight now/

loves and hates - twinchies

Bet the woman on the front of this box wouldn't be smiling IF she had to dye her hair - oh woe is me !


Horrible GREY hair ! I loathe my grey hair! I also loathe having to dye it myself (cost cutting exercise) - but I also hated going to the hairdressers and parting with £50 - £70 for an hour and half work! I'm not mean, it was a 40 minute drive to and 40 minute drive fro my hairdressers and a few times I got home and thought - I can still see a few grey hairs ! AS I said I LOATHE grey hair.

I feel the need to do some more twinchies ! - I loved the last lot i did. here is my front cover - IRL it's very shiney and scrummy - love it and as the title of this post suggests I'm going to do twinchies on my loves and hates - one, of course will be dying my hair and grey hair in particular !! - Loves include the very front of this little book - anything shiney, glittery etc - I'm so EASILY pleased really. Tee Hee.

OFF now to go meet my mate - hope it's a nice afternoon, weather wise, although it's a bit cold still.

Didn't get to walk the dog - poor dog, but I should be home by about 4.30 pm so can do him then - if the weather holds.

Monday 13th April, 2009

Didn't sleep well? Sue Locke kept coming into my mind over the last month and meeting people who are connected. We were such good mates for such a long time and it seems so strange that I haven't seen her for about 16 years - anyway,. I have taken the step of writing to her - post it today - lets see if she contacts me, I have given her my email address. Was looking for Mike and Lynn too in Shrewsbury but no luck there, have an old address but looked it up and it seems that it was sold two years ago - so may have lost touch completely now. I hate losing touch with people, Key isn't so bothered at all........................MEN !

Out with Linda later, didn't get my hair dyed so gotta do that now ! Just cut Key's hair and the dog needs walking BEFORE I go out - or maybe when I get home - quick dinner tonight so I can relax a bit before work tomorrow - with Mrs N ! dreading it cos boss is off - having said that now she knows HR are involved she might be her usual sickly sweet self !

EASTER SUNDAY - Yep - another ALREADY !

Happy Birthday MOM ! Here is my SLYMI and it's week 15 already (don't really like the word already, but you can't get away from the fact that this year is going so quickly - AGAIN).

Just cooking Easter Sunday Lunch - got to dye my hair later and Key wants his hair cutting too. Already walked the dog and done all the bills and paperwork that needed doing, I really wanted to relax today - BUT - can't.

Have arranged to meet up with mate Linda tomorrow and have a couple of hours out - after doing bank accounts online, made me realise that I have no money to spend tomorrow so it's a good job I did the accounts before going out as I was going to Curburough and they have a scrapping shop - I cannot spend, been spending far too much on ebay again - it has to stop.

been a messing around with bits again today !

Fimo flowers for my next SLYMI challenge - they're to stand out - a lot on the page to frame the side - I think I shall use Silicone Gel adhesive which I've had a tube of for ages and never used.#

little copper/tin flowers - embossed and flattened and a crochetted flower I made too.

my CD cases box filled !

Mary-Ann on UKS made one of these from CD Jewel Cases -

loved hers - not so keen on mine, but it's OK when it's completely dry I will load it with scissors and pencils and pens etc - I HOPE.

such a lot going on - my mind in turmoil

with Mrs N - and waiting for something to be done - saw HR, non the wiser really, spose things will sort themselves - we have a meeting on 28th - BUT Mrs N thinks she is doing nothing wrong. What a stupid nightmare.

Tired - looking forward to a bit more of a relaxing weekend tho - EASTER ALREADY

I just shake my head in sheer ???????

I think the woman may be completely mad. After telling me that I had a wicked mouth? That I tell lies, that I 'have too much to say' - that I think people actually like me in the department! - and a whole range of other vile nasty stuff - she comes in to the office today and in her sickly sweet little (VILE) drole says 'morning Gill'. I was quite determined to not answer her back after she said yesterday 'Why WOULD I EVER WANT TO SPEAK TO YOU?' - but has the audacity to say good morning Gill to me !! Only because the boss was there and she wanted the boss to hear her and say 'well gill must be telling lies'. I AM NOT TELLING LIES, THIS WOMAN HAS RUINED MY DAILY LIFE SINCE 24th December, 2008.

I got to work, Monica came up and asked if I was OK. She's really quite lovely. Gary came over to see the boss..............................he walked down to the office with me, and we went into the office and he could see I was 'down' he asked 'are you OK', well I blarted all over the place, I said I was so embarrassed about crying - the woman has me in absolute pieces. I cannot stand her. I really feel I need to walk out and never return.

But the boss has HR coming in tomorrow now - I am shitting bricks.

Well, yet another VILE, HORRIBLE, STINKING DAY WITH MY COWORKER

How can I call her a coworker - she hates me, and I hate her back. She was so vile today, strutting about and very obviously not talking to me. She obviously is VERY JELOUS of the fact that I get on OK with everyone else............................OH HOW I HATE HER.

I gave the typed up notes (report) of all (well not all - cos that would be far too lengthy) as it was it was 15 pages of A4 of all she has said, done and resaid and redone since I started in the department on 22nd December to the boss yesterday - 6th April, 2009 and she is placing it with HR - I HOPE - cos I have to do something before this woman makes me lose my mind. I AM NOW SO SICK OF HER, IF I COULD AFFORD TO I WOULD WALK OUT TOMORROW NEVER TO RETURN. I can't afford to.

I am so worn out with her nastiness and pettiness and vileness and every other ness you could possibly think of.

Gotta get to bed.

Typing this up at 11.10 pm Sunday night

Work tomorrow and I KNOW that I have to say to the boss that I am taking this situation with Mrs Nasty to HR.........................I am absolutely dreading it. It's the unknown. I don't know if I shall get any support from the boss - can I? Will she be on Mrs N's side? Will boss take any sides? I know that she shouldn't.

At the end of this what do I really want. I know I can;t work with this woman, she is incapable of being nice all of the time. I have done nothing to this woman to warrant how she treats me. I am so sick of it all. I wish I hadn't taken this job...................but the job is OK, I find the boss OK, everyone else OK. It's not a rocket science job, I can go to work, do my job, a few stresses and strains maybe along the way per day but generally I can come home and forget work until the next day. AND it's not bad money.

BUT I cannot work with this woman. So I suppose I hope that I might get a transfer out of it to another department? I don't know. I know I don't REALLY fancy having to learn yet another new job! BUT IF I have to, I have to. I don't want to see Mrs N in trouble even though I do hate her for what she has done and said to me......................she is nearing retirement and it would be nice if she decided to retire. I just don't know what it is with her, she is so angry with the world and his dog. She never appears happy. There is no laughter in the office with her. It's really quite dreadful.

So, I am off to bed, but dreading tomorrow.

Did week 14 SLYMI

Worrying about MOnday - on my mind constantly. I am so fed up this woman bullies me at work and makes my weekends upset cos I'm either dreading going in on Tuesdays because she;s in or now the worry of taking this all further. Why can't she just get on witht he bloody job and stop being nasty !!

Anyway, here;s SLYMI - week 14 already.

I made this today

As an embellie line across the page of my BOM - (E) Enthusiastic.......................love metal embelllishments and scrapbooking stuff at the moment, can't get enough of it!