SHE (Liz) strikes again

I really think the woman has a personality disorder - I hate every bone in her body - I feel so sorry for her husband, he must must must hate her too. SHE is VILE and EVIL.

She had to make sure she RUINED my New Years Eve - she called me pathetic. I REALLY THINK SHE NEEDS TO LOOK CLOSER TO HOME.

I hope I get a new job early in the New Year and can give in my notice - I WILL, however, go in for constructive dismissal because she makes it impossible for me to go into work.

Liz - FUCKING LIZ !

nothing more to say about her - things are gonna change.

Already 27th December - nearly 2010

Christmas Day was a good day - during the day - the stresses though of being in the new house, not remembering where anything was and 5 people at one stage standing in the kitchen area - got me jittery and we all had a bit of a bust up on the night. BUT then everything was OK again.

Went to see Sherlock Homes on Boxing Day - it was good, although it was slow in places and found myself wondering off - Key fell asleep towards the end ! Keir and Olivia didn't come as they were asleep.

So today 27th - we went off looking at Sofa's and Wardrobes and beds - expensive to say the least - so will have to be bought in bits and pieces and added to the house otherwise it will just clear us out completely. Marian and Dom came for tea - it was lovely to see Marian, haven't had chance to sit and chat for a long long time. Must make the effort to go see her regularly again.

WE have decided, that Key and I that we shall have Christmas Presents and I have definitely decided upon a Ranger Melting Pot - don't know if I shall use it regularly, but love to have a go and hope that it's something I really do want !

So 28th tomorrow and Key returns to work - as in the Shop. Have invited Janet and Keith and John and Chris over for tea - and asked Keir and Olivia to come too - Key's off Tuesday as I go back to work ! AND I have to work then up to New Years Eve - the time goes by so quickly.
I wish that Claire (who always had parties on New Years Eve) was having another party this year, although it would mean meeting up with the old neighbours and them wanting to know where we are now living etc - it would be nice to have somewhere to go for a change - I miss the parties really although they had become mega boring at the old house. Went into Lichfield today to do shopping, I much prefer Lichfield to Tamworth to shop - I miss Lichfield in that way.

Will have to shop again Tuesday after work to get stuff in for a dinner on New Years Day.

Acutally did a Layout - albeit about the house moves over the last 3 months.

Thinking of doing a project of the 'Noughties' - how my life has changed in the last 10 years.

Gotta get to bed.

What a strange week or so

moved on 16th - then the leak under sink 17th, then the shower overflowing 18th and 19th stayed in all day because of the burst water pipe in roadway and the tremendous cold and ice and snow !

So finally got my christmas shpping done for food on 20th and worked 21st to 24th (today) Happy Christmas - exhausted to say the least.

Went to cemetary and crematorium and Aunt Lils - what a shame, she's so frail now - and 90 on 28th - terrible way to celebrate your 90th - she can't remember much and sits and sits and sits and watches a dull boring wall paper. How sad.

Anyway SHE at work has been really nice this week - so it's brewing.

I won't stand her in the New Year though - thats a fact.

Keir and Olivia coming over for Christmas lunch - looking forward to seeing them.

Tired, got to get to bed but want to make sure that over this Christmas period I want to scrap.

Well it's 23rd December and we did move on 16th

BUT only just. Barclays Bank - I hate you ! You caused us so much grief. No one wanted to help us - and I was very angry, but we did move in, by the skin of our teeth and the house IS Lovely.

Got the food shopping on Sunday after the move, got the rest of the Christmas presents on 22nd - Christmas can be done quickly - everything is either prepackaged or frozen, but hey ho (as my mate viv used to say) it's done.

Spent a fortune, and really concerned about the bank balances for Christmas but nothing can be done now, we have to settle down after Christmas and get on with it.

SHE at work has been sickly sweet this week - I am so sick of being lulled into a false sense of security and then she hits me when I'm down..................and the boss-man had the nerve to ask me 'are things any better' - I didn't want to shout at him and say no they *ucking well ARE NOT she either ignores me, rips me off a strip over stupid silly things or is sickly sweet - I hate every bone in her body and I would like to stick a *ucking broom up her arse and make her *uckins swivel on it. BUT I basically said that things hadn't improved much and he said 'well we have tried to sort it out' AS IF it was my fault. I WISH I had NEVER given up the Snowdome job and gone to work with HER, but that is hindsight.

Anyway, another job in the pipeline at £1000 a year more but is full time, it'd be nice to get a new job in the new year and be able to tell them to SHOVE the other job - I have nothing against anybody there, or the job, ACTUALLY I quite like the job, I just HATE Mrs Nasty with a vengeance.

So.....................gonna try and get on with things and ignore her like she ignores me.

It'll be very hard.

Very tired.

Looking forward to having the kids over for Christmas day and us all being together enjoying our festivities. I HOPE.

Nearly Christmas.

time marches on

already 12th December and completion on the house is on Monday ! We have to pay the final balance monies and so our accounts won't look very healthy for Christmas - but we will be in our new OWN home for Christmas day.

Have worked like a mad thing today tidying things out and the rubbish again that we have collected in 4 short months - it's a nightmare.

Sad night last night when Rhianne left us - I felt awful having to ask her to go, but we just do not have the room at the next house. She text Koz telling her that we had been very welcoming and like the family she never had - I was in bits - went to bed crying my eyes up. 2009 has been the worst 'emotional' year of my life. I am fed up crying over everything.

Mrs Nasty has been VILE again at work - and ignored me whilst the boss was away - then talks sickly sweet when the boss comes back - I hate her so much, I cannot describe how much I hate that woman.

I had my lovely 'yellow inchies' from the swap on UKS and they are so gorgeous. I have had to drop out Decembers inchie swap and Christmas inchie swap though because of the move - even though we think we shall be online again by about 18th - I just won't have the time.

Still got my cards to send - although I don't send many because of giving to charity instead, and Christmas shopping to do. I am getting into a bit of a dither as I really have so bloody much to get done and working Monday (I certainly wouldn't ask Mrs Nasty to work my monday when she couldn't do it last time for the last move as she was playing golf) - PLAYING GOLF my arse, I wish I could ram a golf ball down her bloody throat.

Enough already.

Will pack up my craft stuff on Tuesday, Key's off tomorrow so we can get the garage sorted, Key's off Monday so he can get quite a bit done then, I'm off Tuesday which will be my craft room and any extra stuff. As we have this rented place until February, there is no rush to get everything to the new house - but we need to get the large items on the removal van and over to the house. Se need to get a large shed errected too as we don't have a garage. The house is lovely, small - but lovely.

I am an emotional wreck - I cannot believe how my life has changed in the last 12 months and in the last 2 years in particular. BUT if nothing changed we'd all be very boring people.

Slimming world - I have lost the grand total of 4.5lb's - in a month ! better than gaining, but I;ve not done too well the last two weeks - staying the same week before last and gaining half a pound last week. I have Sunday through to Thursday before my next weigh in and I am determined to lose 2.5lb this week so I am at half a stone off and a further 3lb's the week after so it'll be 10lb's for Christmas day - I think that is DO-able.

much better day food wise

Have eaten SW properly, must lose at least 2lb's this week.

Shock and horror - my MOT is due tomorrow ! Had to text boss to say will be in late, Key will come with me to nearest MOT centre and take me to work - hope they can MOT my car ! - HOPE it passes - it's a terrible worry that I might not have it for Tuesday and TAX is due too - so don't know what I'm going to do.

Nightmare really. I should have checked earlier, but really thought it was about 15th December when we bought the car - didn't realise they (the garage) registered the car on 30th November.

Ah well. Might have to go to work by bus and/or train. THE NIGHTMARE !

Have had a relaxing day. Done three ATC's for the Christmas Swop on C.O.C.

Terrible day for food !

the 1.5 I lost I have probably regained since Thursdays weigh in - so gotta get back to SW properly tomorrow otherwise I shall be disappointed by weigh in on Thursday. AND Christmas celebrations really start now - John and Chris's on Saturday night for a 'large' tea, so much be good good good. IF I manage t lose 2lb's this week - that'll be half a stone by 3.12 - 10.12 I could be another 2 down (9lb's) and 17th (11lb's) so by Chrismas eve I could very well be a stone lighter - really must must must try now.

Keir sold his bike - he was so sad to see it go. I have to remind myself that I am glad to see the back of it - it worried me every time he was out on it, but then he's getting a car and he wants a fast car and that worries me too - but at least they can come visit us when they want to and we won't have to keep doing all this too'ing and fro'ing. I do miss him being at home though.

Korin needs a job, I hope something comes up for her very soon.

Ashley from the sales office (house) rang today to say that it's more than likely going to be 11th December - completion. I don't know whether to stay here or move before Christmas? This place is such a mess - carpets need cleaning etc - but at new house we will need to have a large shed erected and the internet and phone put in and sky before Christmas - it all seems such a rush when January we can take our time. Oh the dilema huh.

this last two weeks have gone in a total blur

2 x 40 hour weeks - BUT IT HAS BEEN SO GREAT BECAUSE THE SHIT I WORK WITH WAS ON HOLIDAY ! but I am absolutely exhausted...........................dreading Tuesday when she is back, trying not to think about it. People have though, volunteered 'critisisms about Mrs N' this last fortnight - I didn't get drawn in or talk about her, just realised that she's the same vile nasty shit to everyone. One person said 'She's so far - up - herself and an absolute snob'. It fitted her like a 'T'.

Ear infections have finally cleared up.

Have almost got a completion date for house of w/c 14th - will PROBABLY move on 15th - dependent on whether we can pack this place up and get everthing over there?

Tired.

Keir sells his bike today and getting a car - thank goodness.

Korin down because she is NOT getting interviews - hope she's OK.

Key worn out - but off tomorrow, we will have to have a rest tomorrow.

Still got to sort my ATC's for Rhonda and C.O.C Christmas Swap.......................not really doing much with UKS - I go through these phases.

Slimming world first week lost only 3.5 lb's but couldn't say I was real good on the plan. 2nd week I was quite diabolical on the plan for the first 3 days and then got into it and lost 1.5lb's so I was quite happy with that and 5lb's down in two weeks - could be that stone for Christmas if I get my knickers into gear !

Will try.

That's me - VERY TRYING.

Tee hee.

I bin and gone and done it

went back to Slimming World .................. they're an OK lot - by the sound of it - quite a few very successful target members - hope they 'take me in' and include me. I usually go to slimming groups with someone - the last twice was with DH......................ah well, it had to be done. WASN'T as heavy as I thought I might be - 3 - 4 pounds lighter than I thgought, but STILL around a stone to lose, hopefully before Christmas ? - do-able I think. Well, Ive done it before anyway, but when I was much younger.

AND although you can basically eat and eat and eat on SW - I found that I was hungry today. Gotta get into it properly.

Will go look at house tomorrow.......................I reckon we should be moving in 4 weeks time - just in time for Christmas eh, but we knew that.

My ear infection, I thought was getting better, got excessively worse today and had to go to the doctor again. I gotta stop prodding it with things !

I am wacked.

Got so much on my mind.......................Kay wants all the accounts too and I haven't got a clue where everything is - boxes everywhere, this house is a tip - but we can clear it out to move to our new house and then come back here to clean carpets and finish sorting the garage and getting stuff to the tip - I HOPE.

REALLY want to do some crafting the weekend as I haven't had much chance to do it - and I want to send a set of 9 ATC's to Rhonda. 2 ATC's for the Christmas Swap on C.O.C. Get back to doing a few ATC swaps on UKS too - I hope if I can keep the ATC trail going, must post a 'we need you' I thought I had but it's gone AWOL unless it was taken off by a moderator?

Good news is that I am without Mrs Nasty at work for 2 whole weeks - lets party ! Bad news is that because she is away I will have to do 2 x 40 hours weeks, which lead into another good news thought that THEN when we move I will have 24 hours to take - which is almost a full normal working week for me..................although SHE can never cover a monday for me - so I can use 21 hours for a Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday off.

Gotta get to bed, I am tired. (AND HUNGRY)

Gotta shop tomorrow for 'good' foods for the SW plan as me and DH and DD are all going to have a go at doing it - I would love to go back next week having lost, at least, 5lb's which would take me into the next 'Stone' barrier.

Fingers crossed. - and mouth stitched up. Tee Hee.

Tuesday 10th November already

Don't you just think that GOLD LEAF is so so scrumptious.

Love this ATC. EXCITED TO that RHONDA my lovely American friend loves ATC's - I'm so hoping she's going to get 'into' it - ATCmaking that is and swap with me and others. It would so help her to relax and enjoy her life a bit more - I think. She's arty - and lovely. I hope she does.

Awaiting a completion date on house - reckon it might be in the next two weeks - end of November, early December ! I think.

Really busy this week with change in hours at work and reflexology customers, plus next week and the week after my COW-orker is on holiday for a fortnight - THANK GOD.

strange week

my DS was 22 - we took him and Olivia out for a meal at Wing Wah Burton, it was absolutely lovely - they enjoyed it too.

22 huh - 22 years ago. It's all gone in a blur really, miss him as a baby, miss him as a little boy, he missed so many years being so ill and isolated. BUT I am so happy that he's getting himself together now and sorted.

Korin didn't get her job back - we didn;'t really think she would. Tried to contact this area manager to get something sorted for her to go back to work today but the area manager is rather cagey too - I feel really sad for her that at Christmas-time she hasn't got a job AGAIN - she's really down.

House is very advanced and looks like we shall have to move in end of November - which will leave this place empty! and us two further months to pay on rent at £750 a month - nightmare, but we did save over £15,000 on buying this house.

Will go up t house today and see how far they've got on with plastering - need to go in the week to see the site agent and arrange for tiling in bathroom to be full height, now Karen has left there we don't know whom to contact.

Mrs N - WELL she turned NASTY into NICE this week - so what is she up to - she hates me, yet is nice to me - something is definitely brewing.

OMG my poor daughter

they were absolutely vile to her at work - why does this happen - it's power mad people, trying to put others down. She is trying to get her old job back tomorrow, but I think it might be doubtful? Other than that she'll just have to do what she has to do to try and 'fit in' but I know how she feels.

our house has come on in leaps and bounds and I was concerned that it was too small - but I have to remember that I've been in the showhouse and it's bigger than the rented we are in - it goes back far - whereas I've been used to two houses that were 'WIDE'.

Feel really down tonight for Koz - poor poor soul, she was in bits. Rotten stinking bloody people, why do people get a kick out of being horrible to others?

Saturday again already - got to pick Keir up

take him get his bike.

I did an Aldi shop this morning only to find at check out that it was cash only - couldn't go get cash and go all the way back to had to forget my shopping - as IF I don't hate shopping enough huh.

Hope the picture of my latest 'glittery' background comes out OK, if so will post it here. No can't get a decent shot. Have uploaded ATC's for penny and loralee in case they go missing in the strike at least I can show them then a picture of what they might have had. Tee Hee.

Not a lot happening, AM doing crafting with Monica and Linda tomorrow afternoon - I hope, all being well etc. Will be making a folded 12x12 BIA book - I think, unless they want to do something they've brought with them?

Korin started at Quiz.

A keepsake for my friend Rhonda.

It has been a long time since I uploaded some of my crafting stuff. Not really been doing any LO's just bits and pieces, lots of techniques and ATC's OF COURSE ! Here are a few which is for Paper Wishes Site on the Net - I don't know what has happened to the Circle of Crafters website though - just cannot get on.

Just finished doing the housework for the weekend, better get the washing on and walk the dog then go do some shopping as there is virtually nothing in - Keir came over to bring his bike AGAIN to the repair shop and I gave him all the food we had as they had nothing and they have no money - I worry that they won't make a go of this living together, just hope Olivia manages to get a job - Keir can't, he wouldn't cope with a job yet.

So better get on then. Feel wacked ! Monica was going to come over this afternoon but couldn't make it. I feel that we aren't 'as good' friends as we were? I don't know - maybe just feeling down with all that is going on in the office AGAIN - we have been ordered to get on and shut up otherwise it'll be official Disciplinaries - I am so upset and shocked and now there is no chance of a transfer and I've ended up having to work with her. I just wish she would retire.

PLEASE RETIRE !

It is COLD out there.

October 13th - real real cold - well it IS October......................the weather has suddenly just changed though.

It has been good at work - wish it could have been like this since I started there, HOW I wish I hadn't wasted 10 months of my life. I just cannot understand why this woman has been so awful to me - why she puts me down at every turn. BUT this week has been good again, hope it remains that way - but I don't think it will.

I am really tired. So much to do with regards clearing all the stuff out in this house before the next move. Havne't really done much since we moved in.

CHRISTMAS is approaching fast. NOT buying the kids much. Korin is having a car as soon as she's nearing taking her test at about £1000 - we are paying for her driving lessons too - £20 a week - Keirs just had £1000 to set up in his flat - and no doubt we shall have to pay next months rent too (£430) as they don't have it and they havne't sorted their housing benefit. It's all a bit of a nightmare with our NEW house almost built and being ready ahead of target PLUS paying an extra two months rent AND council tax on this place. Trying very hard not to think about it really.

Ah well, we got this far - we can see the next few months out and then HOPEFULLY we shall be settled.

Gotta get to bed, SHATTERED.

MOnday 5th October, 2009

2 days time my mom died 24 years ago - how quickly the times goes by, but I would never forget her, she was such a special, lovely mother. I was truly blessed to have her.

Well a lovely day at work today - how nice to say that. Mainly because Mrs Nasty wasn't in and the Patient Manager got me doing some work for her that was REAL interesting. It was great to feel needed. Mrs Nasty grabs any decent work, I end up doing all the crap stuff. Still hate her. Have about 20 jobs applied for. I would love to stay in my job, but cannot work with Mrs N - only as long as it takes to get out. Can't wait until my last day and I can tell her what a nightmare it has been working with her. I'll see if I can get some of the 'filing' done tomorrow which another manager said needed doing - it'll be a few hours out the office. I hope.

Days go by so quickly.

DS and his girlfriend came over after the meeting with Carol and was staying for tea. DD was again in a real bad mood and the house was like a tip when I got in. DS and GF decided to go home. I sent them home with baked potatoes and corned beef and beans - I wish I had more money to give them. Such is life. 3 years ago we'd have been able to help them considerably, now, well we are still watching the pennies.

Never mind, the exciting thing is that he is happy, well at least I think he is.

I hope he is.

He is.

I can't wait for the weekend to begin ..... well

it's Saturday night and already nearly Sunday ! I hate sundays cos it means work on Monday, although Work on monday means no Mrs Nasty so it aint too bad. I like the job, I know the job, I can cope with the job, but I hate working with her. I try so hard to forget her, but just about dread Tuesdays.

Hopefully getting 2 hours off on Wednesday afternoon to take Keir to get his bike sorted out. Poor bugger there is always something. Got to sort his rent out too.

He wants us to take some more stuff over tomorrow, and chairs etc. I love how they've got their flat. I am so proud of them they're doing OK.

Korin in tears tonight - and this morning before work. I think she's finding College tough, and working - I wish I had money, I'd help her out more. She has a lot to shell out this year, we'll have to do it, of course. We're paying for driving lessons and with Keir paying us back for the bike we'll save that up for a car for her. I wish I could let them off with everything, but, of course, we can't. I wish I could pack my job up, because of her, but I can't, we desperately need the money.

Anyway, next week the bosses have found us filing - 53 and a filing clerk - to think that I was an office manager and ran my own business, very successfully for 13 years, it's upsetting, but never mind eh.

new pics of the house - I reckon it will be ready BEFORE December, then we have to find 3 months rent and 3 months mortgage and 3 months x 2 for council tax also. SHIT huh.

Today I nearly didn't go in and was going to tell them to stick their job up their backsides ....

I couldn't do it. We need the money. I hate going in to work. SHE apparently loves going in to work. I hate her.

Boss came in and basically said 'you just have to get on with it' - 3 months ago the same boss was telling me this was bullying in the workplace and I NEEDED to take it further and sort her out once and for all. How quickly he has forgotten - NO HELP THERE THEN !

SHE comes in today and is sweetness itself. I hate her - she is a bully, I hate her for that.

It was a good day because she was nice. I still hate her because she is so false and has double standards.

And yet another day tomorrow with her.

I hate her.

I have cried all night long................

this is what I posted last Thursday - or ABOUT last thursdays events:

"EXCITING (kind of) NEWS ! - I had to see HR on Thursday as my grumpy, nasty, vile, stinking cooworker has drove me crazy for a number of weeks - she hasn't really been that much better but it's been copable for the last 3 months or so but the last number of weeks I could easily smash her vile stinking face in. BEFORE the HR meeting boss tells us that one or other of us needs to help out in another department for about 3 months - I wanted to jump to the opportunity, but didn't - SHE is saying she wants to share this job - Something else she wants to cause me troubles over - anyway, it will mean that I don't have to work with her directly for 3 months which will give me breathing space and maybe in that 3 months I can find another job - HOPEFULLY - I applied for 7 jobs this week-have had 4 rejections, how sad is that !BUT ...................... things have got to be better with her out of the equation - I cannot abare that woman".

Our boss lady didn't speak to me yesterday about this job which was available, so asked boss' understudy to speak to the other boses about the job today and the higher management had both me and shitface in the office, THERE IS NO JOB - it has been given to someone else, my heart hit my boots. THEN boss man tells us off basically, directing a lot of the upsetment at me, basically saying that we are silly little women - and that we JUST HAVE TO WORK TOGETHER and GET ON. That is an impossibility - immediately the bosses left SHE starts again and argued with me. I have come home in tears for the 30th time since working with her. All the way through the meeting she called me a liar again - WHAT gives this woman the right to keep calling me a liar - I AM NOT A LIAR, that woman would try the patience of God. I hate her, I wish her harm and that upsets me to think that I can think that way, but 9 months of harrassment and bullying at the hands of her - I do seriously wish her lots of harm. I hope God forgives me, but I would sincerely like to know WHAT I did in my lifetime to deserve ending up working with her.

Saturday 26th September, 2009

Well, I NEVER EVER thought I would see this day - well, yesterday to be precise - My son moved out and into a flat with his girlfriend. I am so happy that he has found someone, SHE is lovely, and they're happy together - they are always laughing. I hope son that you now LAUGH your whole life through because you deserve every shread of happiness that comes your way. Well done to you both. We love you.



I ache all over though! Moving here was stressful and emotional, but the physical move was done by the removals company. Driving to and fro the flat and the walk up and down those stairs upteem times, my legs feel like lead today and had to take ibruprofen.

My house is a disgusting mess - they have left their old room in such a shambles! Still loads of stuff to take over. I am waiting for a phone call to take a few more items over and try and get this house into some kind of assemblance.

Took Korin to work and did some shopping - now going to tackle the house - I feel exhausted though. Such is my life.

EXCITING (kind of) NEWS ! - I had to see HR on Thursday as my grumpy, nasty, vile, stinking cooworker has drove me crazy for a number of weeks - she hasn't really been that much better but it's been copable for the last 3 months or so but the last number of weeks I could easily smash her vile stinking face in. BEFORE the HR meeting boss tells us that one or other of us needs to help out in another department for about 3 months - I wanted to jump to the opportunity, but didn't - SHE is saying she wants to share this job - Something else she wants to cause me troubles over - anyway, it will mean that I don't have to work with her directly for 3 months which will give me breathing space and maybe in that 3 months I can find another job - HOPEFULLY - I applied for 7 jobs this week-have had 4 rejections, how sad is that !

BUT ...................... things have got to be better with her out of the equation - I cannot abare that woman.

Sunday 20th September, 2009 -

house will look like this - but it's only at 2nd stage build at the moment.

From my beautiful house to a smaller version and then onto my new new house, hopefully in December - hope it's not delayed although we've got two months rent to find as well as the mortgage then!

Where has the last month gone too. We had every intention of opening all the boxes that are packed in the garage here and on landings and in corners of rooms etc - and we have basically done nothing, I suppose we are still worn out from the move and the 6 weeks prior getting here. The new house is coming along nicely and must go and get some more pictures taken. Work is terrible, Liz is still vile but pretends to be nice and my friend - I still hate her. Can't help it - she spoke to me derogatory again this last week, AM I really supposed to just take it and let her talk to me any way she wants. SHE still grabs all the work that comes into the office, and puts me down. What a vile stinking woman she is. AND now work is so quiet I am worried that they might not keep me on - I pray that I keep my job, even though I have to work with the worst woman that you could EVER have the misfortune to end up working with. I pray she retires, but I don't think that will happen, they'll carry her out in her box - but that will probably be me before her as she's KILLING me slowly but surely.

Anyway, some pic's - at long last.

Tuesday 8th September, 2009

have missed out all the exciting stuff - NAH not really. We moved on Tuesday 25th August, 2009 to our rented house. Well lets get the timeline done!

Liz wouldn't cover for the move on Monday - I hate that woman! we signed for the rented place on the Monday instead - it was all so hecticl. We didn;'t get back til about 5 pm on Monday 24th and then we had absolute loads to do - but got to bed by 1 am. 25th went in a whirl of a day - and I didn't really get time to say goodbye to my lovely house - HOWEVER, now I have moved it;s made me realise that it wasn't a lovely house, it was a financial burden and it was also so very difficult to keep clean, I was so tired keep cleaning.

This house is tiny in comparison but easy to keep clean.

Will upload some pic's when I'm online properly.

Gotta go.,

Saturday 22nd August, 2009

Took Korin to work, shopped - home, walked dog, had lunch started on the dining room. All boxed up and table down and sweated buckets !

Cooked a dinner, collected Korin, took Korin to Tamworth, came home and did my treatment room, all ready and boxed up now.

tomorrow I have to do all paperwork = quite a bit to do, wish I'd done it today now ! - Will pack up my bedroom and Korin and Keir and Olivia doing theirs and finish packing up the rest of the other rooms. Monday night will have to pack up the kitchen - OH and I defrosed my chest freezer today too - and washed the dishes tonight - all whilst my son and his girlfriend sat and watched TV...............................things have to change around here when we've moved.

20th August, 2009 - EXCHANGE OF CONTRACTS

My 32nd Wedding Anniversary today - 32 whole years, how quickly has that time gone by. Officially we don't own this house anymore................................how very sad is that. I've loved this house, but it's a lot of cleaning. I am tired. I am fed up cleaning this house. A week at work and it looks like a bomb has gone off - KIDS do nothing all week. So tomorrow I have loads of paperwork to do for the move - arrange the removals for Tuesday NOT Monday. Ann my boss point blank said I couldn't have Monday off because SHITBAG (and there is NO other word for that woman I work with) said she couldn't cover my Monday because she's playing golf. I always cover her Friday's - well maybe it's time that I can't.

I'm fed up being nice. I am playing her at her own game again now - she is a pathetic waste of space.

So Tuesday is fast approaching have so so much to do, hope I am ready.

Goodbye house - hello new life with money - I hope.

19th August, 2009

Contract Exchange today (hopefully) - bittersweet, I could sit and cry - I've loved it here. Got to go to work, going in late, really feel I can't be bothered with anything. Moving on Monday to a rented place which is real nice, but NOT my home.

Bought house ready in December - we believe - so another move to look forward to. Excellent huh.

Saturday 8th August, 2009

Where has this week gone - all we have done is sort stuff out and go to the tip and box a few things up. STILL have loads to do, but we have definitely broken the back of it all, and our own backs to the bargain too.

So very worn out. Just hope that we can move in two weeks time - I really need to move in two weeks time ! I need to sit and rest at night, not clean, tidy out, box up, bag up, go to tip, clean up and start all over agian. I vow that my next house WILL not get into such a mess. I think because this house is big you didn't notice the 'extra' stuff everywhere. In a smaller house we will have to get rid of stuff as and when - HOPEFULLY anyway.

Probably gained half a stone this week too with all the extra's we've eaten !

Monday 4th August, 2009

I am so tired. I am worn out. I am an emotional wreck. Everyone keeps asking for money - money that we really don't have spare ! All I can think of is that within a few weeks we will be in this NICE rented place which is similar to the house we are buying and a few weeks further on than that we shall be in our own new house - HOPE, PRAY, that nothing goes wrong. I don't think my mind would cope with any more disappointments and upset. fI have mentally moved out - I don't mind leaving here, I just wish it had all happended and we were settled.

Bag after bag after bag after bag for the tip and unbelieveably the tip wasn't open today - 3 bed's have to go in the tip too - book cases and bag after bag after bag. Cleared Keirs rooms today and there was just so much rubbish - wish he could have come and sorted the stuff himself - but he didn't. Have asked Claire if we can put his bike in her garage as Keir only wants to come back the day before starting college - Bank Holiday Monday!

This is our week holiday, we should have been in Devon - God only knows what we would have done it we had gone away - there is just SO much to do ! We are really and truly worn out.

Mortgage now sorted and new house being bought

Saw a rented place last monday it would 'do' but can't say we were overly enamered with it! Seeing another place tonight similar to what we are buying, it is more expensive - but would be a better accommodation (we think) - we'll make our mind up when we've seen it tonight. Our house won't be built until November/December.

Kate and David have been to measure up for a massive extension on our property - on their property. I felt sad....................when we moved here I thought how wonderful it all was, MY ideal home - I was so proud to live in such a lovely property in an exclusive place. I still do feel that way , but it is FAR too big for us - I am fed up cleaning all the time and it costing us all this money every month. It is nice that the house will have Lovely new owners. I am pleased they bought it.

Keir dropped a bombshell. He and Olivia wanted to rent a place in Burton when he goes to college. I said 'you can't afford a flat in Burton' - he said he knew that, but they want to be together. 'Mom, can she come and live with us' - I said we'd have to see how things go. She is a lovely girl, I am real happy they've found each other - but I don't know if I could cope with another woman in the house? - IF it did happen, they - them both - will have to help do the kitchen, cook their own meals 5 out of 7 days, walk the dog, Olivia would HAVE TO find a job and they'd both have to contribute to the household bills ! What a nightmare.

Going to see this rented place tonight and then to the new house to take photo's see where they are up to - I'm concerned spending all this money in rent when we won't have to live in it.

Ah well, it is ONLY money !

What an emotionally charged week

Mortgages are so hard to come by - we got it - everything sorted, got declined !! NEVER EVER in 32 years of marriage have we been declined.....................turns out that 3, 8 & 9 months ago when I didn't receive a statement for a store card and I didn't pay it - well I did pay it but paid it late they registered me as defaulting in payment. I am devastated. Had to do an experian credit report which shows that we are excellent payers on the mortgage and electric and gas and everything else - just these 3 stupid bloody payments and it's stopped them offering us the mortgage on the new house. ALL is not lost - our current mortgage company are looking at it - and have sounded much more positive, PLUS now we know why it was declined (DECLINED) I really CANNOT believe it, that it was declined for a stupid amount of money - anyway, fingers crossed we hear on MOnday. I really cannot get my head round this - NEVER EVER missed the mortgage or ANY OTHER bill = just those 3 payments on that ONE company and it WAS THEIR FAULT.

Anyway, seeing 2 places to rent on Monday and the mortgage chap coming to sort everything out. My head is spinning, trying hard to clear stuff out - but finding it difficult having to stop to make phone calls, work, reflexology, walking dog, taking kids here there and everywhere, Key working.

Nightmare really.

Well.

Financial advisor been - and it all looks OK, the criteria for mortgages have all changed and we have to put 'more down' than we envisaged and we had hoped to be able to give the business more of a cash injection than we can - but we have to have a roof over our head. WHICH does worry me because we have to go into rented for 3 months whilst the house is being built - we don't know if we will get a rented place with a dog and two cats - it is so worrying, but I'm sure it will all work out OK - well, I really hope it does.

So - things are moving.

My interview tomorrow - don't know if I want it, but it's full time and will be better than having to do my reflexology every night and have let downs by people and then no income because they forgot or couldn't make it etc. How our lives have changed in the last 2 years. So drastically. BUT it hasn't done us any harm.

Feel good today because I haven't got to go to work tomorrow - so I know it's time to move on when I dread Sundays because of work the next day - although Monday's aren't that bad as Mrs N isn't in.

Right, dinner time and now I am definitely back on my diet too ! - and then a bit of scrapping ATC's.

Life has been mad this week - completely and utterly

WE SOLD THE HOUSE - I just hope and pray that the next 6 weeks won't be too hectic and I have a nervous breakdown. I am absolutely dreading getting this house cleared out ready to move into PROBABLY rented accommodation and then move into a new home which won't be ready until November - but at the same time I am extremely excited. I love my house - I don't want to leave - BUT I DO, we need to. If in the mean time we win the lottery - I will stay :) Goodbye my beautiful hard earned house.

Nice couple that have bought it - they'll make a killing on this house in the next few years, we just don't have that financial time - the business needs the money now. How I wish we could go back two years.

Never mind eh. I am sure we will be happy in the new house.

The exciting thing is that Keir has a girlfriend - and he is with her - I just hope he doesnt' have a terrible set back and sleeps for a month when he comes home. BUT he's nearly 22 I have to let him get on with his life and I hope he just COPES as best he can. Can't wait to meet her.

Over to new house tomorrow - the decision. Hope Key likes it - HOPE I like it on 2nd viewing.

As of Saturday we start clearing and tidying out - contacting Solicioros and financial advisors etc etc etc - dread it - but it has to be done.

It doesn't cease to amaze me

How people can receive ATC's and not bother fulfilling their obligation and sending back - AND people receiving and not acknowledging. One of the girls has written to me to say how upset she has been too that people don't acknowledge your hard work and got me thinking - I have taken ages over some ATC's worked hard on backgrounds, and used lots of embellishments which aren't cheap and realised that people haven't acknowledged them.

I've therefore decided not to do as many swaps as I was - which is a pity as some of the girls ATC swaps have been stupendous too -

I always try to ensure I acknowledge and upload and be thankful for others hard work. It's sad huh.

AND MORE

and another few ! Phew !

these are from a swap in America.

These are 3 I've made to send to america.

These are from america.

And these were for an English girl on UKS (I think) - I'VE HAD THAT MANY SWAPS GOING ON , lost myself a bit.

I'm now in the July inchies too - awaiting June inchies on UKs. In the July swap on C.O.C and July Lottery C.O.C - have one more lot of International UK Trail to send and wanted to try and get up to date on the SLYMI - but that's kinda gone out the window.

Not a bad week with Mrs N - although she's still keeping work for herself and keeping work back. Boss spoke to me like an idiot a few times - sick of it.

I have an interview on 13th - DS has a girlfriend - I am so chuffed, hope they last together. Two viewings on the house - one is a Part Exchange - hope something comes from these and they offer a decent price for our house, otherwise we wont move. House is clean for a change but I am shattered. Might go view the Part Ex if they offer OK.

Not good news at the hospital for Key though - after all he's been through with his nose. Pity.

Did lots of backgrounds for ATC's tonight, getting together with Monica at the shop on Sunday -= I think if I don't feel too tired and have my washing up to date and housework etc - but with viewing tomorrow and shopping still to do and korin wants sandles - it's all a bit much.

Keirs off to Doncaster - hope it all doesn't do him in - and he has a lapse and goes back to how he was feeling and sleeping all the time.

MOre and More ATC's

Michael Jackson died today - and another couple of ATC's I did today

Poor Michael Jackson died today................... probably turn out that it was drugs, even though they were probably prescription drugs. BUT it's an end of an era. Makes me sad as he is basically my age and I was brought up on his music. Loved his music. Sad that everthing went so wrong for him. I don't believe the negatives. Just sitting listening to a tribute to him - BRILLIANT MUSIC - Thriller ..................................

love the background of both of these but moreso the leaves one, alcohol inks onto aluminium foil - love it

Thursday night and no work tomorrow

A pic of Monica and Linda doing a bit of crafting - at our 'crop' if you can call it that. I taught them a squash book. We had a great afternoon - can't do anything now fora month tho, give me time to think up something else and put a 'kit' together too. I feel so tired all the time.

Well, I have some reflexology customers but no actual work work IYKWIM.

It's been a bad week. Everything that came into the office she grabs to do - there were two items in 'our' 'in' tray - and I said I would do the more indepth one - she says 'you can do that if you like' - the one that would literally take 5 minutes to do - I said 'I was thinking of doing this job' and she says 'oh, do what you want then' in other words she wanted to do the more indepth job and leave me with NOTHING to do again. She was like a whirling dervish around the office - she is now driving me crazy again - like it was a few weeks ago - HOWEVER, her attitude and the way she speaks to me IS much better currently and I think I can cope, but I don't know how long for, my temper wells up and I have to leave the office. She just doesn't play fair. I think our jobs might be on the line and she has admitted that she HOPE and prays that she still has a job after all the refurbishment etc. I don;'t know, she still hasn't shown me parts of the job and so IF anyone is going to have to go - it will be me, because I STILL don't know the whole job after 6 months being there it is SO SO frustrating with this bloody woman.

ANYWAY - scrapping - still ONLY doing ATC's and swapping which I love to do - it's so enjoyable getting little pieces of artwork through your door on a regular basis. AND everyone, so far (so long as they're not just being kind) have enjoyed the ATC's I've done and sent to them.

Will post a few here.

Gotta get to bed, exhausted from trying hard to keep my temper at work. Phew.

And another few ..................

and a few more ATC's

A few more ATC's - the leaf one I made myself. I keep forgetting to take pictures of the ones I make and send them - need to take pics so I can see if I'm improving.

Feeling pretty low and down. SHE (mrs N) has been sickly sweet, BUT also totally over the top, grabbing every bit of work that comes into the office and doing it before I can - it's really getting to me again, but I have to remain calm otherwise I will be back to where we were 5 weeks ago and I really couldn't go through that again. She's upset a few people this week with her comments and a couple of things have come out how she upset my prevous counterpart!

Keirs bike is in the garage again, don't know what is the matter with it - but it's jolting, it was very dangerous on A38 - I hope he hasn't bought a pig in a poke.

Korin hated the job and she's trying really hard now to get work - I hope she gets something soon.

Key is worn out - he falls asleep at the drop of a hat - he never has the time to sit and relax. I am worried. I too am worn out - worked all last week cos she was on holiday - then 4 days this week and was under stress with her - then all day today - my kitchen is a disgrace,.

BUT - what has to be has to be. Will go shopping early tomorrow, do housework the rest of the day tomorrow and Sunday Lin and Monica and I are meeting so I need to get the squash book sorted and all the materials for Sunday - they're giving me £2.50 each for providing the stuff. I shall give it to Korin - she had a fiver off her mate for ferrying her back home last night - so that'll be another tenner this weekend.

I've been spending far far too much on crafting - £17 on the mica powders, £5 on the mini misters, £7 on paint today and about £10 on ebay on various bits and pieces - that is in one week - that's £40, £40 I don't really have to spend on crafting stuff. I am back to how I was when we were 'financially well off' a couple of years ago. SO now it's got to be Mrs Goody Goody again.

AND at work too - big sigh.

A week has sped by

The couple in Williams Avenue moved out yesterday and new people moved in. It makes me sad that we havent' had viewings.

I had a mad splurge and did quite a bit round the house today but you wouldn't believe it tonight, Keir walking in and out with his biker boots, Key cut the back lawn and grass everywhere and the dog moulting like there is no tomorrow - SIGH. I also shopped today so I don't have to do that tomorrow morning like I have been doing over the last number of weeks, it really eats into my Sunday. Having said that I have to take my car to Kwikfit tomorrow to get the tyre done and then I shall start using my car for to and fro work - only using Key's bigger one every so often to keep them both running. I love my old car and it should be a bit better on petrol and IF Korin starts working at the pub (she has a trial on Monday) then she might be able to afford driving lessons.

Just been thinking about our Janet and her birthday - my brother was 60 last week, 60 years old, I can['t believe that my brother is 60, how frightening is that. WE are all old now - to think that dad died at 50 and mom at 62, YEP it's pretty frightening. I would hate my sister or brother or even sister in law to die without them knowing that I love them - I'm doing Janet a squash book birthday card and trying hard to find a poem that would fit and let her know that she is my sister and I wished we;d been closer throughout our life.

Work - SHE has been exceptionally SICKLY nice, and I hate that too - but it's better than her being the vile person she was for nearly 5 months. Still wish she would retire. Things are happening at work too and people being redeployed , I hope I still have a job.

Monica and Lin and I will probably get together on Fathers day next week as Key is working and do the squash book I've planned - I don't get to do anything but they do. I will have to charge them this time tho as my scrapping supplies are going down and down as I don't replace stuff as I used to. Having said that I've spent quite a bit recently and REALLY must watch what I am spending. So easy little win's on Ebay and an item here and there - but I certainly don't want to give it away to my friends, they should be buying. Monica does - but Linda doesnt - so I will have to charge them for the supplies we use.

STill doing the ATC's swapping had loads - as you can see here.

Gotta get to bed, real tired again tonight.

What a lovely day today !

We went a croppin.....................

that is I and Monica and Linda. Linda and MOnica got on well too - so that was real good.,

I taught them to do an exploding box and it all came together real well, and they loved it and I was chuffed. Maybe I should get back into teaching ?

DISAPPOINTED today that Geoff Horsefield has sold his house, real quick and he was just telling me that he has to be out in 21 days (don't know whether we could have done that !) but I would love to sell the house now and have a very small mortage again and relax a bit about finances.

Never mind eh. What will be will be. We love it here and don't really want to leave, maybe that is why we don't get the viewings - everything around here seems to be selling.

I am off on Tuesday for my washing machine repair - I hope ! - so I shall tidy the front of the house and cut the bushes back etc - then I'm going to paint the front door and front door step - it does look a bit shabby. FINGERS CROSSED that we get a sale soon, it would be wonderful.

Back at work tomorrow which isn't so bad as I work on my own on Mondays. DREAD tuesday - well I don't because I am off on Tuesday, but we are back together again on Wednesday and looks like for about 8 weeks !! before my holiday in August.

So looking forward to that break.

Anyway, better get tea cooked, Key fishing. So glad he's enjoying that again.

wednesday 27th May, 2009

(this is my FIRST ATC swappee received - love it)

(this is for my COC swapee)

I have taken today and tomorrow as Annual Leave. I should have been getting on with lots of things in the house that have been neglected - I need to wash Key's suit. I have done the kitchen but it's raining outside so can't take the dog. It's 10 am and I should be ready for the day - I am not, sitting in my nightie - but I don't often get the time for ME time - so I am today. Got a reflex tonight too.

AND I AM SO EXCITED (I know I am very sad) but I received my first Swapee ATC today - from T-Ann on UKS (Tracy) it is lovely !! - will post a pic.

AND I've joined another swap on the COC (Circle of Crafters) and just finished an ATC for her - which I will post a pic of also.

Wish I'd done this AGES ago.